Geoffrey Posted February 3, 2006 Posted February 3, 2006 I had my first session of counseling last nite. Everything I surmised about the demise of my recent relationship with my ex GF turned out to be accurate. She is a severely depressed alcoholic and the illness indeed is responsible for the wanton destruction of something that was at one time a very beautiful and wonderful thing. My worst suspicions and fears were confirmed. Past a certain point, as the illness blossomed, it became a graveyard spiral until it impacted the ground with a hard, dull thump. The demise of any relationship due to an illness or disorder is a tragedy. I am in mourning today over what once was, and will likely never be again. If she were to start a recovery process tomorrow, it would easily take a year or more of intensive therapy to heal her old, old wounds that are still bleeding. May God help her and heal her. My counselor told me this will probably take me at LEAST six months to work past, it's only been 12 weeks so far. More sessions will reveal more answers, I'm sure. I've been through so much, tried to do so much, and gave so much to her that I had little left for me. I simply gave it all away. Beloved reader, please know that these hurts don't go away in a week, or even a month. I am finding out first-hand just how elaborate and involved the healing process can be. Many of you ask "how long will I feel this way?" and I can only answer you by saying you can't put a clock on it....and you can't rush a good job, either. Float with the tide....don't swim so hard against it.
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