soar eyes Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 I have been reading and thinking about the advice that has been given to me and different individuals on LS. I know what I have to do to get moving on with my life. So I just needed to hear it actually get it through my head and get moving. I have started taking music lessons and I am so excited about my new venture. I just began ,so until this morning I have still been waking up with Him on my mind. I know that I have to see him once a week while exchanging our daughter. But I have a new venture in my life, in the meantime, it will give me something to yearn to learn. Something to replace the times that I yearn for him. I know that sounds a little crazy, but I love music and for me that is just what I need right now to boost my selfesteem and to occupy time that I may be thinking of him. I have come to realize that although he broke off a love like I have never felt before. It ended. And there are peices of my valuable life that broke off when that bond between us ended. How valuable is my life? Am I not worthy of having a life that is fulfilling. Im sure he cares about me but that is no longer the issue in the forefront of my mind. The important issue is my well being. I am the only one that orchestrates my decisions about my well being in my life. I hope that this new venture in my life will create a renewed sense of love for me. Possibly letting me know that I love myself enough to leave the peices of the past behind me and start building a new future for myself. So this is also just a thank you LS. I feel that I'm getting stronger to actually move on. 1
CaliGuy Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 Congrats. We all deserve to be loved and have our loved returned. When we don't, we assume there is something wrong with us or we have failed. It's just that person was not right for you. The good news is someone better is coming along. The sooner you let go of the ex and heal up the sooner we'll be in better shape to accept them.
PlentyLV007 Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 Congrats. We all deserve to be loved and have our loved returned. When we don't, we assume there is something wrong with us or we have failed. It's just that person was not right for you. The good news is someone better is coming along. The sooner you let go of the ex and heal up the sooner we'll be in better shape to accept them. You know I ended up breaking it off with my ex of 5 years. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Especially because the majority of people thought that I had someone already in the back burner and that's the only way that anybody can leave anybody. NO! Not me! Sure majority! Even though I broke it off with him, I felt like I wasn't good enough because he didn't know if he wanted to live with me, marry me and so on. It was hard and well I realized that I had some things about me that I had to change to make me a better person and not for him. I had to pass a lot of hurt, depression and negativity on love. I had to accept it, make myself a better and stronger person and move on. CaliGuy's theory on No contact on the Ex is a great thing to read. I wish I would have read it sooner! About two years ago sooner!
Author soar eyes Posted February 1, 2006 Author Posted February 1, 2006 Congrats. .... It's just that person was not right for you. The good news is someone better is coming along. The sooner you let go of the ex and heal up the sooner we'll be in better shape to accept them. And that you are so right about that. He was not the right person for me. I see that more and more everytime I think about the years I didn't really feel that we were ever going to be together as a married couple. Its weird how the heart can overtake the mind as though they are batteling against each other. I have to learn how to balance my feelings and my thoughts when it comes to loving a man. I always fall heavy in and out of love.
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