Patty Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 Im feeling very sad.I lost my friend.She had cervical cancer.All I do now is cry when I see her picture.I met her at another message forum.Its so hard cause I miss seeing her posts.I look down to whos online and it just isnt the same.Im still kind of shocked from all this and cant accept it.We talked about the same things,had the same interests.All I do is cry.Its so hard to go there now.Its not the same.I cry most of the day and think about it.I had a dream about her last night.I woke up and I cried cause it wasnt true.This is just so hard.
Becoming Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 I'm sorry for your loss, Patty. It's hard to lose a friend. I lost a good friend to lung cancer. She was only 53 and didn't smoke. That was three years ago, and I still tear up writing this. Maybe she was trying to contact you in your dream? Tell you she's ok.
Author Patty Posted January 31, 2006 Author Posted January 31, 2006 I hope so.Its just not the same.I also have a sad song in my head that she liked.It also tears me up.I dont even have the desire for music anymore.Its kind of hard for me to hear it without getting emotional.I just wish I could see her laughing like I once did.I wish I could stop crying.
Curmudgeon Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 I just wish I could see her laughing like I once did.I wish I could stop crying. Just close your eyes, Patty, and envision and remember the good times, the shared times and the love between you. She's there and smiling and laughing because she's at peace, there's no pain and she knows she's loved and valued. What a beautiful ending, and she want you to go on with your life and be happy. Do you think you can dry your eyes now and smile back at her?
whichwayisup Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 I'm sorry for your loss Patty. Just keep on crying until you can't cry anymore. Write about, do poetry, make a song about her. Do a tribute for her! How much she was loved, how important she was, the impact she made in your life. When you're feeling up to it, maybe organize a memorial service for her. Light candles, play her favourite CD's, everybody can share a memory or two about her. Hugs and take care of yourself.
Geoffrey Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 I lost three friends last year, two were murdered and one was a bad alcoholic who died in the woods and wasn't found for seven weeks. You might consider thinking about two or three qualities of the friend you lost, and picking those up as a part of who you are. That is what I did for each of these friends, and those parts of them that I loved and admired the most now live on in me. It is as true a legacy as I can conjure up, and it works for me. She wouldn't want you to be unhappy....and none of us here would either... May God comfort you during this most difficult time.
ThatOneGuy Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 It's sad losing someone close to your heart. But, the deepest truth of all is that one day we shall all join her in the endless slumber of the afterlife. I hope you find the comfort you are looking for. With friends like you im sure she lived happily to the very last moment.
Becoming Posted January 31, 2006 Posted January 31, 2006 I sometimes talk to my friend. I thank God for her. I have a plaque I gave her that she packaged up and had her executor send to me after she died. It was a hobo drawing of a cat, a sign hobos used to leave for others during the Depression on the sidewalks in front of a person's house where they'd found hospitality. It's a happy cat, so it makes me smile (sadly perhaps) when I see it and think of all she brought into my life. But when I received the plaque, I put on music she like, lit a candle, prayed, talked to her, and just cried and thanked her for all she's meant to my life. I'm Christian, as was she, and remember her among the saints and picture myself having communion with her on Sundays. It helps to know she's happy. I'm sorry for all your losses, Patty and Geoffrey. (Wow. Those are hard, hard ways to lose friends.)
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