Bitterness and anger

[taylor3205]

To those of you who dont know my story, my ex of 7 years broke up with me nearly 4 months ago now. It has been a living HELL, very hard to deal and cope with although I am getting better each and everyday. I no longer pine for him like I used to, I no longer love him as much, I do miss him, I do like him as a person (I think (sometimes)) and it has been hard with a capital H to try and get through this.

 

The most intense feelings I have are anger and bitterness towards him right now. The fact that he just packs up his clothes and a few personal possesions and moves out after 5 years of living together as if nothing had ever happened. Then lied about the fact there was nobody else!!!! He has left me with a lot of bills and debt I am really struggling to cope with at the moment. He left me with 3 dogs that I cant really afford to keep. I have allready re-homed one of them (this was hard to do as I love them all). He acted like he cared at first and wanted to do the "friends" thing, he said there was no one else in the picture. He was contributing to dog food and said he would help look for homes for the dogs etc But NO, as soon as I found out there WAS someone else that was it!!! End of story.

 

I am left with it all myself now, I just feel so f****g bitter and angry about it all. I am left to sort out all the bills, I am left to re-home the dogs, I am left in the house we shared together for 5 years and all the memories. I have actually applied to go to University which was something I wanted to do years ago but meeting him and moving in with him held me back. I have also successfully got into University and start in Sept 2006. This means giving the house up, which I dont think is a bad thing. BUT yet again, I am left to sort it ALL out. While he has moved back to his mothers and probably doesent even pay her lodge money AND has a new partner. He bought a piano that he has left that weighs a ton, wtf am I meant to do with that?

 

I just feel like its so easy for him and so hard for me. I am quickly going in the red financially, and the anger and bitterness I hold towards him and his new partner is not healthy. I hate them both. I want to be in a position where I really just dont give a damn either way, I want to erase him out of my life completely.

 

I think giving the house up and going to university will help me a great deal. This I believe will help me get over him, give me a new circle of friends, keep my mind occupied a lot and get me out of this small town where I hear his name almost on a daily basis, not to mention the qualification I will get and the career opportunities that will be open to me after obtaining it.

 

I will be upset when I get rid of each dog, I will be upset when I give up the house. I just hate him for putting me through this.

[Yamaha]

You will realize ( in the future ) that he did you a great favor by leaving you.

You were the responsible one in the relationship and you will recover and move on to much better things in your life.

 

I think giving the house up and going to university will help me a great deal. This I believe will help me get over him, give me a new circle of friends, keep my mind occupied a lot and get me out of this small town where I hear his name almost on a daily basis, not to mention the qualification I will get and the career opportunities that will be open to me after obtaining it.

 

Your own advice is perfect.

Good Luck and don't feel to sad for he is not worthy of you.