VONA13 Posted January 21, 2006 Posted January 21, 2006 Long story.And Im in pain, my heart is tearing apart each and everyday I think about him. I was with my ex for 5 months but Ive known him for the past 3 years, he was always a charmer and liked me from the start. We tried to have some sort of relationship the first year but it never went anywhere. So the second time around I fell for him deep. We were both so happy and enjoyed each other every single day. He was so perfect at the beginning, and I loved him more each and every day. Everything happen so quick how he loved me and how I was his "true love", he wanted to live with me and marry me as soon as we could. He even set a place and I went with it. Download all these love songs that reminded him of me.He rambled on about how I was his world. He called me every single day, e-mailed me and txt msg me every morning. Slowly we began to fight each day about little pity things but he still called me, he cried for me on how he could not loose me because he was nothing without me and that he needed me to breathe. I fell for everything he told me each time, because I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and no one else. So the New Year came and we didnt spend it together because we had a major fight but we both looked passed it (also we fought for christmas day). I called him and just expressed my drunken self to him. Everything changed he became someone I didnt know, he said he loved me but I always blamed him for everything and how I did not care about him. It wasnt like that and I just let him ramble on and on and I just blamed myself to make him happy. He began to put me down each time we were together and sent me mean msgs but then he would always end with an "i love you". Each day has been getting worst and he said he wanted time a part to see what he wants and how he has so many "things" in his life that he has to deal with. So it was set on a "BREAK" and then the beast came out each day was just a torment. He told me how sick and tired of me he was and how Im being childish that I dont seem to care about him any longer. He basically called it my sh*t. He asked how I would feel if someone else was in the picture and how he went out with this new girl and that he might marry her. That tore me apart. And I feel he's with someone else because he oddly called me and sent me msgs here and there. When he would just flood my phone with txts each day. Now he said he wants to work things out. I feel Im being played with and I miss him now that we dont talk or see each other I need so bad and Ive deleted everything hes sent me and i erased his number but I love him so much that there are days that I just want to call and let him know that I miss him.I dont know how to stop hurting, I dont know how to let him go completely. I cant sleep and Im always awaiting for his msgs. What can I do? Its killing my heart and it hurts more and more each day. What will make it go away?
fatcat Posted January 22, 2006 Posted January 22, 2006 wrap up the blanket, dust off the leaves, pack up the food, this picnic is over. Methinks he has found another, and its great that you found out early that he's an assclown. "I love you" stuff in emails is so trite, it makes me sick. My ex g.f used to pull that crap on my emails up to the day she told me she's going out with someone else....youre lucky to find out this out before you spent time and money moving in with this jerk.
scardnlost Posted January 22, 2006 Posted January 22, 2006 awwwww.... You gotta think about it ... he wouldnt call or text once in awhile if he didnt atleast think about u. N maybe he just needs time to see whats there.... if any thing. They say let him roam n he'll find his way home .
salmagundi Posted January 22, 2006 Posted January 22, 2006 Yeah, I dont know how many times my ex would tell me, after she dumped me how she "didnt want to lose me." The day I finally gave her all her stuff back in december was the tuesday after a friday night that she found me at a club downtown, told me she loved me, she...thats right..."didnt want to lose me" and then disappeared. I found her a school and told her "you know what, I dont even know what "you dont want to lose me" means anymore because you sure as hell arent doing much to keep me at this point. Heres my read. Your BF is like (i think) my exGF. He is needy and insecure and a little ****ed up (sure sounds like it anyway...). He needs you to fill his void. So did my ex. He says he "doesnt want to lose you" but forgets to add "until I find someone new and temporarily more interesting to fill my void." And if that doesnt work out he'll come find you again. Maybe I'm projecting but I'm thinking its best to move on. If he does want you back, make him work bloody hard, i would say (from bitter experience). yers truly salmagundi
Author VONA13 Posted January 24, 2006 Author Posted January 24, 2006 Fatcat, Thanks for the reality check. I’m in my early twenty's and I still love him and I don’t know how to let go completely because I've felt he's my true love but I doubt his attitude when he contacts me. I put to much emotions out there for him and I received nothing.
Author VONA13 Posted January 24, 2006 Author Posted January 24, 2006 Heres my read. Your BF is like (i think) my exGF. He is needy and insecure and a little ****ed up (sure sounds like it anyway...). He needs you to fill his void. So did my ex. He says he "doesnt want to lose you" but forgets to add "until I find someone new and temporarily more interesting to fill my void." And if that doesnt work out he'll come find you again. Your thread made me smile, thanks. I do know he's screwed up but I found that out too late. He's made me feel guilty for this "break up". So I dont understand so well when he apologizes "loves me" then has some crazy mood swings. I gave him the NC for a couple of days and he apologized and called me... Tells me all these lies for me to take him back. Do you have your story posted? If so can I read it?
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