Dreams About Ex

[anonymouse1212]

Hey all, 

For the last few months I have been having semi regular dreams about my ex boyfriend from about 5 years ago. For clarity, things ended abruptly from his end when I left for school so at the time I received little closure. We are also both currently in seemingly healthy relationships and these dreams are not inherently romantic or sexual. The dreams usually entail us reconnecting or having an established friendship, talking things out, and having mature conversations about the past and our current lives. I've started to become attached to the ideas in these dreams and honestly often wake up sad from them. I feel like I need to get this off my chest, but 1. there is no possible way I can get this clarity from him in real life as I don't want to be weird and we haven't spoken since the break up— I even messaged him months later just to check in and got no response, so I don't think I can be the one to reach out ever again (and we are both in relationships and I would personally feel weird if my partner messaged their ex no matter the intention) and 2. I would feel very weird and awkward talking about this with my current boyfriend because I would certainly feel weird if I was in his shoes and I don't want him to misinterpret my feelings or become upset. Google tells me I am craving feelings of closure and clarity, but why now and what do I do when there is no way of achieving it?