I just feel like alone but idk why and I rlly want to change it but idk how

[Anonymous]

I’m never enough for someone to rember me or seek me out to hang out with me and make plans unless I’m physically with them and I make the plans. I always communicate txt say hey say hey wanna go do this me I’m just not sure why it always starts the same and continues to be that way and yea some of my friends are more reserved others not so much but like why can’t my friendships ever progress into more it’s just me trying the whole time but they enjoy my company always say yes to me and a lot of the time they would say they had fun or they hope we can continue to hangout and talk through the school year like I’ve met some ppl that are a little better with trying but only very slight but I don’t understand why mutuality comes so easy for everyone else in their friendships and I’m almost out of college and I can’t seem to get rid of this pattern I go maybe it’s because I’m the problem but then how am I the problem if they continue to hangout with me and talk to me I just don’t get why they don’t initiate nothing I haven’t ever had many “friends “ I was shy so I didn’t explore my horizons much but I did what I could but i didn’t rlly ever find someone who put effort into me and noticed when I wasn’t around it’s also harder than I thought to find ppl who are authentically themselves who have a personality and like act real with u there just a vibe I can’t explain but it makes ur friend feel more real and genuine I just feel there something wrong with me cause why for this long has this been my ongoing problem I can’t seem to make friendships that are much different they are basically have all been the same and still are I wanna make melted go on trips or hangout or idk something I feel sad and idk what to do maybe I approach the wrong ppl all the time 

[S2B]

You’ll need to do contrary action. Do the opposite of what you’ve ever done - to get a different result.

like, if you never invite others to go do something fun - then start asking!

and use punctuation. People would read it if this wasn’t one long run on sentence.

i just saw your other thread. About basically the same thing.  This just confuses people. 

Edited December 4 by S2B