I feel like a strange

[Anonymous]

Hi, I don't know how make this, I am new and my english is bad.

Lately I've been feeling tired, frustrated by stupid things, and sometimes my own family irritates me. Let's just say they're not the best family in the world, but they're not bad either. I love them, but they often irritate me. Hearing my parents complain about anything just gets on my nerves. I also have an addiction, not too serious, but when everything else falls apart, I turn to it. I have several friends, and that makes me happy because I genuinely laugh with them, and I'm grateful they're my friends. I also feel like I've lost friends I thought would be my lifelong friends. Things with my girlfriend aren't going well; we haven't seen each other in a month and a week. What the hell is that? I know she loves me, but she's very much a homebody because of her parents, and I'd like to see her, but there are always obstacles. I feel like she doesn't make the effort she should to at least see me once a week, and our relationship feels very distant compared to the years we were together (we've been dating for almost four years).
I don't know if this is the right forum to post this. I haven't told anyone how I feel, not a single person. I don't even know if people will make fun of me or something like that XD. Thanks if you read it all.