azkaban_escapee Posted January 10, 2006 Posted January 10, 2006 Ok, this is long and complicated, so bear with me. My boyfriend and I have been together for a year now and we're really close. At uni we live together and we see each other as much as possible during vacation. Last summer he and his (male) friends went off travelling round eastern europe for 3 weeks. I really badly wanted to go, having always been interested in that part of the world, but it was clear it was a boy's trip and that I "wouldn't enjoy it". I was miserable the whole time he was away, and it was made worse by the fact that we couldn't even text or talk on the phone because it was too expensive. He knows how much I hated it when he went away, but now he's planning another boy's trip to morocco, another of my dream places to visit. This time he says I can come (like I need permission!) but again it's clear that I'm not wanted, especially by one of his friends who doesn't like me. I don't know why he has to keep doing this, it's going to become a regular fixture and I don't like the fact that instead of looking forward to summer, I now dread it. I know I shouldn't but I can't help seeing it like he's choosing his friends over me, in which case it must be that he doesn't love me like I love him. I'd never choose to go off and leave him like this, so why is he doing it to me? I've talked to him about it but he doesn't get it. Ok, it's not good to live completely in each other's pockets, but the guys he's going with are my friends too (we're all part of the same group of friends) so why should I be left out all the time? It's making me feel really hurt and rejected.
Recommended Posts