FUBARd Posted January 10, 2006 Posted January 10, 2006 I posted a thread a while ago, it was probably stupid because it didn't get any responses, sorry.... I'm prone to stupidity in times of need.... I think this might be a time of need, but I'll try and keep the stupidity to a necessary minimum. Okay.... I've met a girl on an internet forum, and I'm in love with her. Like.... totally and utterly. I have rebuilt my world around her, spending time on the forums talking to her has taken precedence over everything else.... school, socializing, sport, you name it. Probably not the best way to be going about it, but hey.... Lately.... things have been great. Every time we are both on the forums at the same time we end up taking over a thread or in some way getting to know one another better. I have her MSN address, but I don't quite know what to do with it.... I was talking to this other guy from the forum, he met a girl on there, they live on opposite sides of the world, but they have committed to one another. He stressed the importance of MSN, quickfire conversations without the time to think that you get in forums. But I just suck at starting the conversation, and either she does too or she just doesn't want to. Anyway, I fear that I'll end up saying something stupid. Plus, whenever she's on MSN, she's on the forum too, so it'd be difficult to have a proper conversation. It's a complicated situation.... she has a boyfriend. You might say that's an impossible barrier to cross.... but it doesn't bother me that much. It's complicated too, I'm not gonna get into that side of it.... but for me it's not a big thing. It's difficult to compete with the people she meets everyday in real life. Actually, it's a ****load more than difficult, but I think I'm making a pretty good effort. But how to take it to the next level.... I know it's an awkward request, but please if any of you have any advice as to what I can do to.... yanno, to make her think about me. 'Twas her birthday recently, I sent her a PM with some drawings and stuff. It's my birthday in.... 2 days time. I'm so afraid that she won't do anything for my birthday. For me that would be a major indication that the feeling isn't mutual. So.... yah. 2 days. And even if she does go to a little bit of trouble for me, she's a very, very nice person, it doesn't necessarily mean she likes me if she does something for my birthday. *sigh* .... I really have to know. I have to tell her how I feel. I've written a song for her, it kinda sums it all up. I could record it and send it to her via MSN.... but, I've also written a short message (ie.... about a page long) telling her how I feel. I could do that either. Or, I could go with something really short, like 1 line long. Or I could just sit here doing nothing, waiting it out to see if anything happens by itself, wrecking my own head by constantly replaying conversations over and over until all I can focus on are the negatives. Yeah.... that's not gonna work. I have to tell her. And if I do tell her, then it's the right thing to do. If you've read this far, well done and thank you. Please, a little advice. If there is anything you could offer me, anything you think I'm doing wrong.... please put aside anything relating to the fact that online relationships rarely work out etc.... nothing anybody says is going to change the way I feel about her. So please, just advice, anything that might help. Thanks a lot.
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