Forever Searching Posted January 10, 2006 Posted January 10, 2006 I've been with my current boyfriend for 3 months now. Everything started out well and then two weeks into the relationship he went to visit his parents out of state and when he got back things just seemed "off". We ended up getting in an argument and made up and thing continued to feel off. We ended up breaking up (my doing) I jumped to conclusions and guess I got scared of getting hurt. The breakup lasted about a week and we got back together. Thins have for the most part been fine although we've hardly seen each other in two weeks. We got into a fight yesterday morning and I left. It was basically because I got upset over a "joking" comment he mad to his friend about me over the phone and then I overheard him tell his friend that he may not be coming back here at all after his training that he leaves for in two months. (He's in the military). So that made me even more upset because I felt like that information is something I should know. For awhile now I've felt "strung" along like he's only using me for companionship for now until he leaves. When I've brought up this to him of course he denies it. He just hasn't been as affectionate to me like he used to be and as "into" me I guess. I tried calling him last night to talk about it and he didn't answer my call of call me back. I've tried calling him again today and left a message just saying I'd like to talk about what happened yesterday and get his point of view and what's he's thinking and to see if he felt if we should salvage this or just let it go. He hasn't called me back and of course he could be busy but I have a court hearing later this week and I'm already worried and stressed about that and I told him I'd like to get this out of the way and deal with it one way or another so I can concentrate on the hearing and not have double stress to deal with. I'm really hurting right now that he won't call me to talk about it. It hurts to think that he just wants to take the cowardly way out and break up just by never speaking to me again. I feel we should at least end on good terms and do it at least over the phone. Should I just accept the fact that its most likely over and he may not even call to tell me. I mean I'm not sure I even want it to work out but I at least want to talk about it and discuss it!! Maybe I should just realize he's a selfish emotionally distant jerk? He has major insecurity issues and was always accusing me of cheating.
Author Forever Searching Posted January 10, 2006 Author Posted January 10, 2006 Well we finally talked and it is over. He wanted to take a couple days apart and figure out what we want to do but I figure it's better just to make a clean break of it. At least things are on good terms. It still hurts right now but I didn't see it going anywhere and there seemed to be just too many issues on both of our ends so that's that!!
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