kjdriver Posted January 9, 2006 Posted January 9, 2006 Ok, so I am here checking out the boards and guess what? The kids say "Dad's Here". As quick as I can I close the window and get doing laundry. He heads to the bathroom, I crank some tunes and start dancing. I mean total happy tunes. He comes out, and I just keep doing my own thing. Grooving away, appearing like I am totally content and happy. He asks me whats wrong. I look at him and say nothing, everythings great. Go back to doing my own thing. He obviosly was going out to go play with his band but at the same time he looks like he is putting it off. He was so upset about my good mood. So he asks when I am going to bed. I didn't know and told him that. Kept doing my thing. He follows me and asks why I am not answering him. I said, I don't know when I will crash. I guess when I am tired, I say. Long story short, he said he wants to come back and hang out cause he really needs to wind down. I think him seeing me doing well is bugging him. He was truly going crazy that I was rocking away to the music and not looking sad. He left looking quite concerned. What a change of tune eh?
Touche Posted January 9, 2006 Posted January 9, 2006 Ok, so I am here checking out the boards and guess what? The kids say "Dad's Here". As quick as I can I close the window and get doing laundry. He heads to the bathroom, I crank some tunes and start dancing. I mean total happy tunes. He comes out, and I just keep doing my own thing. Grooving away, appearing like I am totally content and happy. He asks me whats wrong. I look at him and say nothing, everythings great. Go back to doing my own thing. He obviosly was going out to go play with his band but at the same time he looks like he is putting it off. He was so upset about my good mood. So he asks when I am going to bed. I didn't know and told him that. Kept doing my thing. He follows me and asks why I am not answering him. I said, I don't know when I will crash. I guess when I am tired, I say. Long story short, he said he wants to come back and hang out cause he really needs to wind down. I think him seeing me doing well is bugging him. He was truly going crazy that I was rocking away to the music and not looking sad. He left looking quite concerned. What a change of tune eh? I don't know..haven't read any of your other posts...so IS it a change of tune? Even though he still left?
Author kjdriver Posted January 9, 2006 Author Posted January 9, 2006 He has had control this entire time since the break up. Since its only been a couple weeks since we have been seperated, I was pretty emotional and had a hard time keeping it together around him. I guess what I meant by change of tune was that I have finally regained some control over myself and how I handle myself around him and was surprised at his reaction. Rather than being distant and quiet, he was doing all he could to be near me, talk to me, just connect with me. He looked truly sad that I was doing ok. I didn't mean to hurt his feelings but I need him to know that hey, I am not going to lay down and die here. I am going to be ok.
My_Other_I Posted January 9, 2006 Posted January 9, 2006 Good for you! I'm not a fan of the whole revenge thing, but the saying "the best revenge is to show that you are doing fine" or something like that might be true
Author kjdriver Posted January 9, 2006 Author Posted January 9, 2006 I don't want to play head games with him but I don't want him to think I am dying. I am inside but hey, I have to get my head straight. They say, fake it and you will eventually believe it. If I fake my confidence, mayby I will feel it faster and hopefully get over this pain a little quicker. Having the kids I have to try to act like everythings fine and since he's left they don't go to sleep early at all. I have no time for myself to regain my composure so I guess that forcing my own happiness might be the best thing to do. I don't know. Right now I would pay some serious cash to see my future, no kidding.
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