some0ne_here Posted January 3, 2006 Posted January 3, 2006 last time i have posted msg regarding what i was going through. shortly, my bf and i have been together quite sometimes and we planned to get married this year. abt 1 mth ago i found it that he was a married man before. he is divorcee. this thing really made me sad and i felt cheated that after being together quite sometimes he lied to me n he just said that he had a gf. he never told me abt this. i was thinking i wanted to save this relationship so i gave him second chance to start allover again. he said he is happy n our relationship made him happy. although it is quite difficult for me to trust him. until i asked him whether he and i are really match. last christmas i went overseas, and he sent me off. first few days i was away, he sent me msg that he missed me alot. but after that i didnt hear anything from him. i called him wondering what happened. he said that he didnt miss me at all, he said he wanted to break up. he said he was not happy by far . i asked him, that he said he was happy . he replied that he lied . and he said that he missed me was a lie too. he said he didnt want to go on and asked me not to contact him anylonger. i was sad but i just said that i would not contact him anymore , if that is what he wanted me to do and i said sorry for all hurt that i caused. and i asked him to take care n said good bye. my heart was really broken into pieces and now ... i am trying to get rid off all the memories .... what was going on actually ?
itwontdawnsooner Posted January 3, 2006 Posted January 3, 2006 the memories wont go away. they fade with time, but they stay. what youre going through and will go through for some time will be very painful, but thats not to say that you wont make it through. easy for me to say, i know, but be strong and realize that you did the best you could in the situation. if you caused him hurt and made mistakes, fine, youre not supposed to be perfect. regardless of what he said, did, what you said, did, he was hiding things and very coldly decided to end it. wondering about why is only useful if you can say to yourself, i realize i did some things i wont do next time, doesnt make me a bad person, but next time ill be stronger and with a guy who sees me for me instead of for a few mistakes i may make like normal people do!
someone_here Posted January 5, 2006 Posted January 5, 2006 thanks for your support. it is not easy for me but i am trying to move on. do u think this relationship is hopeless? he said to me not to contact him anymore and he said he wouldnt change his mind. i just wonder how come, when he sent me off to airport he said he loved me but just within few days he said he didnt want the relationship anymore. anyone of you ever been through this situation ? what did u do to overcome it ? sometimes i want to hear his voice but i just say no to my self ...
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