Author Brittanyjean06 Posted January 4, 2006 Author Posted January 4, 2006 Yeah! we will pull through one day- its jsut after 5 months- you still feel the same( maybe a little bit different)- it just tells you how long this pain can last for you know?? i will going to a community college for 2 years! My friends are all moving- and want me to come......but i am not ready at all ..they say it could help me get over him faster- but thats not until like 8 months! and hopefully by than i will be feeling better- but i am not ready to pay bills- and work hard on school-So i know i would only be going to make them happy-...i will cry so hard at graduation- but i was really upset 8th grade graduation but this is different? this is like big you know?? entering college! the bigger world- so i feel so much emotion right now ! But i have that to look forward to- and in your situation- its still so raw! you know....same with me still so raw- I have sleeping pills- from 5 months ago( when this all happend)- I think i will start up on those again maybe haha- was your relationship good? healthy? what was your man like-, mine was not healthy- I lost who i was for a while- and this is my ticket for freedom! chat later!
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted January 4, 2006 Author Posted January 4, 2006 Hey jadey- my screen name is beavisnbritthead- I'll be on tonight, im curious on the scoop on you- you are the same age- im sure we can relate just like alot of other people can to ew saw my ex boyfriends new girlfriends mom- ah hahah
brooke7777 Posted January 5, 2006 Posted January 5, 2006 Our relationship was great..or so I thought. Every few months we would get into these little fighting tiffs where we would just push each others buttons over dumb things, but they would only last for a day or two. About three weeks before we broke up we had this huge blowout, but we sat down and really hashed out our issues with each other and everything seemed to be perfect during those last few weeks. I literally met him one day after work and it was like a bomb went off...I was in utter and complete shock and I guess part of me is still in shock. We were that power couple that no one ever thought would break up. Everyone thought we would be the first to be married...apparently people had bets on when we would be engaged. And we talked about it all of the time...even during our last days together. Which to me was unfair on his behalf. That really contributed to me being blindsided. College will open a whole new world for you. But I totally agree with what you are doing. You have to do what's in your heart and not what everyone else wants you to do. I live in PA and I almost went to Florida for college because my best friend was going there and I didn't want to go into college without her. I ended up staying home and commuting to a local college and I'm so glad I did. I wasn't ready to be out on my own yet and I would have never made it. It is sad when everyone leaves, but honestly the people that ar truly your friends will always be your friends no matter how far away you are. Others will seem like they fell off the face of the earth. I think I am kind of coping with that too now. I've realized who my true friends are recently and they have been the ones that have always been there.
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted January 5, 2006 Author Posted January 5, 2006 yeah, i was so afraid to go to school- I new it was going to be a big shocker for everyone- but thats gone now- no one really talks about it- everything feels so different- each month is painful?? you know??? I don't want to give you false hope at all! but you guys seem like ya'll just had a big blow out? He could possibly come back to you? i meen im not really clarified on your situation- did he just flat out dump you???? Brook
brooke7777 Posted January 5, 2006 Posted January 5, 2006 He came home one day and basically said that he lost his enthusiasm for the relationship and didn't know if he could get it back...whatever that's supposed to mean. He said he needed a few days to sort out his head, so he went to the beach and I stayed home. I basically cried my eyes out for five days...I think deep down I knew it was over. We met up and he just siad that right now he couldn't do this anymore. He was confused and we basicallly sat and hugged and cried for hours. Ugh...it was so sad. But I never really had an explanation as to what caused him to lose his enthusiasm especially when everything seemed so perfect. And he's someone whose easy to read...every emotion shows on his face. We met up a few weeks ago and really I got not too much further clarity...it's just so hard to accept things when you're not really so sure what the heck went wrong, ya know? What happened with you?
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted January 5, 2006 Author Posted January 5, 2006 well things weren't so good with us eather- things just got different like we werent ment for eachother any more- but we still stayed together because we did love eachother-- than in august we got in a fight- and i wrote really mean emails of how i felt- all this mean stuff- and a week later he got with someone else- who was my friend- i was soo nice to her- they happen to go out in 7th grade but he used her for sex- but shes naive and claimed he loved her lol------- I didnt believe it at first- so i walked over there and saw them i flipped out- it was sooooo bad and he hasnt talked to me since- and i havent called him- it hurts so bad- because i still feel like hes with me- like i dont know maybe im going crazy its just werid- and im defiently grieving- and i do not like it at all- feels like this pain will hurt forever
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