confused,lost,lonely,scared,and need some help ! and maybe some friends

[lonely_girl]

well I'm 21 my boyfriend just turned 26 on Christmas we have been together for 7 yrs now and have a 6 yr old daughter together ! we have always had problems,ups and downs and all around.I'm not sure how a relationship is posed to work seeing that this is my first real one and everything happened so fast,he was my first of everything . i have never really had any real guidance as far as relationships go or anything else i have just been kinda winging it i guess i could say . this isn't the first time i have felt unhappy and not wanted ,unattractive , boring , and so many other things and before i did cheat on him and he knows about it and we did split up for about 2 weeks and then said we couldn't live with out each other after that for about a month or two it was great i felt like my needs were being met and everything was perfect .. but then its all gone and i am back to feeling like my needs r not being met . I'm 21 this is posed to be like the wild years so i have heard we went to the club for the first time together about a month ago and that will never happen again .... we went with his cousin one that is married and the others r single the one that is married him and his wife stayed with me the hole time while my boyfriend wonder off so many times i couldn't even enjoy it for wondering what he was doing . seeing that he cheated on last year right before thanksgiving ..yes we broke up and went or own ways but when we got back together i asked why he did it and he told me it was because he wanted to get back at me but at the same time his cousin the one that is married the one that is his best and only friend was cheating on his wife .. so i have always thought that he did it cause he wants to be just like his cousin. and now every time i ask for sex he always give me the same reason " I'm tired" even on the days he has off of work he is always " tired"

i don't know what to do i feel so alone like he keeps me here with him to clean and cook for him and he is so lazy something can be in reach of his hand and he will still ask me to get it for him and when i say no reach your arm out and grab it his starts to bitch .. we alway fight over the stupid stuff . i don't work I'm a stay at home mother the only time i get out of the house is when i go to drop off and pick up our little girl or when he gets a mood to where he wants to get out of the house and then we just end up going to his cousin house and sit there for hours on end watching TV .

what can i do to get him to notice me again ? and to make me feel special at the same time ? confused,lost,lonely,scared,and need some help ! and maybe some friends .