smile95 Posted December 26, 2005 Posted December 26, 2005 I was so tempted to text him yesterday to say merry christmas. I was expecting one from him, but nothing. I know he was shocked that I did not contact him and I hope that tells him that I just do not care anymore. It took a lot out of me to not contact him. he has been with me for 3 past yrs this time of yr. I had to think rationally and not call! I knew that saying merry xmas would just tell him that I was ok with how he treated me in the past and I am not. Also, this is my way of moving on. 2006 is a new start for me. I know now that I can do this. I have not seen him in many many months and I am still alive! I do not need him. (or his mental abuse). Each time I thought I missed him, I made mysefl list things I missed. I could not do it. Thanks to all of yu on LS.....I am going to be able to start over.
bendit Posted December 26, 2005 Posted December 26, 2005 congrats but hear this...if you get a text message from him there is a BIG chance that you will go back to square one. REAL NC would mean changing your phone number and sealing all the cracks. Good luck. I hope he decides NOT to bother you. Unfortuneately the ball is still in his court. Have a great 06! regards
Author smile95 Posted December 26, 2005 Author Posted December 26, 2005 thanks bendit....your posts have helped me a lot. You tell it like it is.... I kinda feel like he will call me again ONE day, but I am not hoping for it or counting on it. I have learned that although things are great for a day when he calls me, but things just go back to the same crap after the intial fix is over. I almost feel like when he ignored me when my Grandmother died, he knew I was done and maybe he knows better than to call me ever again.
slubberdegullion Posted December 26, 2005 Posted December 26, 2005 Congrats, Smile. You dun good, girrrrlll.
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