Gomen Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 I am so messed up. Really. I moved out from my wife, then met another girl who I totally fell in love with. She lived in the aparment right next door to mine. I would always come home to see here. I was so crazy for her and I told her so many times. We would kiss for hours and listen to classical music. We are both musicians. She is very beuatiful and I am also Model-good looks. We were very passionate and romantic. She told me she'd have time over chrismas break to spend more time with me. I waited. Then, all of a sudden, other girl left me for a 17yr old boy who claims to be a terrorist and loves Osama bin Laden. It is her ex-boyfriend. I never left my wife, and that is my mistake. Why did M*** (my new ex-GF) leave? I believe that she loved the boy very much. I also believe that she did not trust me for I am married. However, M*** is married, living separately, too! I love my M*** and want to get her back. She moved when I was gone and I do not know where she is. I never got to say goodbye. I want to say goodbye at least. I am trying to find her, but I feel like a stalker. I don't want to do this. I have sent her letters to her old address. I feel like a loser doing this. I am a young professional and have a very bright future. I don't understand M***'s decision. She is stupid, I think, because she is not considering deeper issues of humanity when considering a SO. My wife has seen me crying over her. I told her everything and since I cannot bear to be back in my apartment next to M*** (My new, ex-GF), I am staying with my wife again. I have lost my wife now and that is very sad. If anything, this is a lesson that having two women does not work! I believe that if I try, I can make reparations with my wife. However, it is my SECOND CHOICE. I still chose M*** (my new ex-GF) over my wife. My wife knows this, too. So why do I not prefer my wife? Well, she is a much better person and much smarter and more compassionate (animal lover, caring person). However, I do not feel any passion or romance with her. However, I do want to keep my wife, if I can. I know, I know: I suck! It is so low to take a second choice -- for both of us. Unless we can resolve the issues of physical attraction. I am just not into my wife. She is unattractive (to me but not others), she snores, and her nipples are deformed. Despite this, most men find her attractive. My friends have told me that they are attracted to her and that I am lucky. I love her, but I am not happy. Should we work on the relationship? She is trying to move out today. She has lost her pride and feels abused.
Donburi Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 My ex broke up with me because I brought it on myself, so even though it hurts like HELL, I can somewhat...almost...kind of... accept it. Now, if he was unhappy with me because of something so small and stupid like snoring, or my NIPPLES being "deformed" then that would certainly be another story. If those kinda things bothered you so much, you shouldn't have even married her. I feel sorry for your wife. Your wife isn't your first choice, so leave her. Let her find someone else to treat her better. Don't be so afraid to be alone.
Art_Critic Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 Your wife isn't your first choice, so leave her. Let her find someone else to treat her better. Don't be so afraid to be alone. Good post Donburi..
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