beowulf Posted December 5, 2005 Posted December 5, 2005 I posted this on the dating board but I think it should go here instead... For some reason, I feel I need to tell my story maybe it'll make me feel better, or maybe it will make someone else feel better about there problems. Let me start 3 years ago... I was a contractor, moving around from state to state, making more money than anyone my age should be making, when I met a girl. Not just any girl... to me it was the girl. The one of my dreams, so at this point I decided to leave my high dollar job and take a significant pay cut to stay in the area , 40%. The first three months I was there(1000 miles away from my friends and family mind you...I was completely starting over) were wonderful, weekend trips to the country, casino trips...and before my contract was up we were engaged. The day I left one job and took the pay cut staying at this place 1000 miles away from everything I knew...she broke off the engagement. I was devestated... I didn't know what to do, where to go...I was alone. Why did she leave you may wonder....because she was a lesbian and wanted to try to patch things up with her old girfriend...A SMALL FACT THAT SHE DIDN'T MENTION BEFORE. Months went on, I settled in, I made new friends. Then I met another girl. She was nice, mature, and everything the previous one wasn't. She had three kids and eventually we all lived together. For 2 1/2 years we were together, this girl even begged me to get my name tatooed on her. After a year she did it anyway. Across her back and it was huge. For two years we talked about marriage and children... 3 Weeks ago she tells me in the pouring rain (when I caught her talking to her ex boyfriend...not thinking anything of it though) that it's over and she didn't love me anymore. Now this was rather a shock...One: no had ever told me this before Two: everything was always fine in our relationship Three: I make 5 times as much as she does and pay all the bills. and last but not leat: At a moment to prove her love to me 4 months earlier she TATOOS MY NAME ON HER. I won't understand why she did this...I can't bring myself to talk to her. I moved back to the south leaving everything behind except 3 suitcases, I even felt bad for her and paid the bills in full for 2 months. What's wrong with the world? My question for anyone that has ever had their heart ripped out after giving everything to a relationship for a long period of time... How long did it take you to trust someone again? How long did your depression last? And has Clonazepam ever helped anyone else with their depression...it just doesn't seem to work on me... Thank you for reading, Beowulf
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