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Six months since breakup and I feel great!!!!!!!


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YAY!!! in about an hour and a half it will be Nov 30 which means that it will be exactly 6 months since my ex first said "I need space".... what followed was rough and messy and ugly and all of that, but I feel so good now! Haha, I found myself kind of waiting for midnight and wanting to do something to mark the occasion.. drink a toast or something.... a half a year!!! at the time, I thought I would never get over it, the rejection, the hurt..... I am still really trying to learn from the experience and I haven't stopped thinking about him or the relationship or the breakup by any means, but I am trying to learn from my mistakes, not relive old times, and I am making amazing/scary discoveries every day about why I did the things I did or acted how I did and how I really feel about all of it. I was his doormat and there was nothing OK with that but I kept making excuses for him! It feels so good to be out of the situation and no longer pining for something that I know is bad for me... I feel like a smoker who quit and finally realizes that I never want another cig... sometimes I think I should call him so he can come get his stuff from my house or whatever... then I think "geez, he has my number, I don't really want to talk to him, he can come get it if he wants...." I still care about him on some level, care about the good parts and I am sorry that he is hurting (he was pretty devistated that I wouldn't take his sorry ass back this time, yep, he broke up with me twice before).... if we were at a party together or something it would probably be fun to catch up (if he could be civil, last time he called me everything was going fine until he realized my BF was with me, then he told me to kick him in the balls..... real mature) but I really have no interest in having him in my life. And I have the most wonderful boyfriend now who has showed me how it is possible to have all of the good things in a relationship without putting up with a bunch of BS for the sake of keeping the good things... he gives me the absolute minimum of BS, doesn't pick on me or bully me, and he is jsut so great!!! Oh cool, him and my ex should have a celebrity death match style boxing match, that would be rad... ok, now I am just joking around, I really do want the poor guy to be OK, he isn't a bad person, just an insecure and immature one, but it feels so good to no longer feel responsible for his well being!!! YIKES... I think I am going to go have a toast of loganberry Manishewitz (sp?) cuz it is the only thing in the house... ahh, freedom tastes sicky sweet, or is it the wine?????

 

 

Here is the sad thing.... he split with me for many reasons... the main ones being that he hated his life at the time, he felt like I was his only friend, and he was getting damn curious about having sex with other people... I he tried the last one and I guess wasn't too thrilled with all of the effort it takes to be single and now he misses me like crazy... I knew and he has come to realize that I would have no trouble meeting someone great as soon as I was ready (and I did) but I think we both know that he is going to have a very hard time finding someone who will be as wonderful as me for a very very long time.... he is really awkward and it takes a lot of effort to get past his BS and see the stuff that attracted me to him.... poor bastard...

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