AnonymousG Posted November 28, 2005 Posted November 28, 2005 First off, I'm 21 and this girl is 19..We have a few things in common.. the only thing that I don't really have in common with her is the type of music we listen to, I, listening to gangsta rap and her, listening to more rock and punkrock, i know this isn't an issue really.. and i shouldn't need advice with this sorta thing.. but i want to see if there is anything weird or just some feedback on my situation.. We met maybe 5 years ago.. I was skipping school at my friends house.. getting drunk and smoking weed like most kids do.. and we were all sitting around the table playing russian roulette with a capgun or something and taking shots.. my friend (the one whose house we were at) was this girls BF.. I never really liked her, or at least i never thought about it.. but skip maybe a year, so now its about 4 years back.. i was kinda interested in her because i knew she was a freak in the bed and that's all i was thinking about at the time.. She and my friend broke up eventually, some time later she was hanging out with another group of friends of mine.. and i was starting to actually like her a little, but so was my other friend.. unfortunately for me, she found out he liked her before me.. so, i clearly f*cked myself over for not coming out and telling her, but i was nervous.. They went out for 2-3 years but in that time, she knew i liked her and she liked me too.. at least that's what she said, we talked on MSN.. and got into some heated conversations at times. (everything seems easier online ) One friday night, at my friends house (the one who was with her when we first met) my birthday being at the end of april, and hers at the beginning of may, we had a party celebrating our b-days.. and we talked about kissing as sort of a present to each other.. kinda lame but, hey. She was feeling depressed or something at the party, everyone was drunk and fights were breakin' out 'n stuff like that.. so i asked her if she wanted to go for a walk, and we went to tim hortons.. so drunk that i didnt realize i was walking around with a beer and she was walkin around with a mixed drink lol.. we were walking back and i figured now was a good time to kiss her, so i stopped and stopped her too, put one on her lips (wouldn't have found the courage if i wasn't drunk) and then we kept walking back to the party.. she stopped this time and asked me if we could do it again.. i was like 'sure' why not right? even though she was still going out with my friend at the time.. we exchanged some tongue and it was good.. from there on, i knew my time was coming. They eventually broke up, which brings me to an almost current-time. I've had gf's since i met her, but i still always had something for her.. and same thing with her, so she says. But while i was with my gf at the time which lasted almost 2 years, the girl i really wanted was single and then got into another relationship with her ex-bf from before i met her.. but that didnt last long at all and now it's my time to shine, we're both single, and we both got feelings for each other. Her bestfriend, is also my bestfriend.. (shes a girl) so we get to hang out alot.. one time i was at my bestfriends house alone watching tv or somethin, and she came over to wait for her bestfriend too.. she was on one side of the couch and i was on the other, i said something stupid like "come here and kiss me", she said "you come HERE, and kiss ME" so i took like 20 seconds to build up confidence to do it.. but i did and we made out for an hour lol.. this was about... June 2005 (this year) and since then, we kiss and sometimes act like we're going out.. we hold hands.. I've recently had sex for the first time with her.. and i'm almost there.. i know sex doesn't usually come until later, but one thing lead to another.. now she's telling me she does really like me, and i could quote "you could have me in 2 seconds if you only showed me that you really wanted to be with me".. which is hard for me to show the affection, because i'm so close, and i never really thought i'd go out with her.. i already achieved the sex thing, but that was just a stupid thing from yeeears ago, and now i really like her.. i am nervous for some reason.. she makes me nervous, and im scared of something, im not sure what it is.. it's like.. a glass of water (stupid analogy), either i drink it, or i don't, it's that easy.. what the hell is wrong with me? lol thx for reading my novel.
WhiteDragon Posted November 28, 2005 Posted November 28, 2005 Continue to ask her out, get to know her even more. Your feelings may be telling you that you feel more for her than your mind actually realizes. Just go with the flow. Be honest with her and I'm sure you two will be great.
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