CantDecide... Posted November 25, 2005 Posted November 25, 2005 yea last night i had a pretty huge party and i heard my ex was coming. she never came. but today. I sent her a message via myspace, u know jsut to say hey whats up how are u etc etc. told her to call me sometime if she wanted. so she imed me tonight. wetalked for like an hour. but now i just feel like ****. i mean we didnt fight just kinda cuaght up but shes diferent. like my sweet baby girl has turned into party queen. not to mention im party king but i dunno, shes just not her. we talked about everything school, work, careers we want in the future, familly, social life. parties bad times being drunk latly random ****. but it just feels wierd now, shes so diferent, such a drinker, a weed smoker, things she never did that often that she does all the time now. i mean im sure shes hooking up with guys at parties or w.e, so am I (with girls though)...but like i just feel blah. i dont miss the realtionship just her, i miss the way my life was, ive changed since her and i dont like it, i like my old life, i want to tell her i miss her, and that i love her still after everything. sure i get to get with other girls and talk to boat loads, but i dont want that i just want her. i know im crazy i know ibroke NC, but what would u do if u loved a person so much, and just wanted to tell them after 5 months, i mean i know im just gonna get burnt all over again but maybe i should ask her for cofee, or like a bite to eat, i just miss my girl, as much as theres time when i dont miss her i still think about her everyday, this sucks i hate my life...back to my vodka bottle....any comments?? and suggestions?? i know tell me im stupid
In Sync Posted November 25, 2005 Posted November 25, 2005 we talked about everything school, work, careers we want in the future, familly, social life. parties bad times being drunk latly random ****. but it just feels wierd now, shes so diferent, such a drinker, a weed smoker, things she never did that often that she does all the time now. i mean im sure shes hooking up with guys at parties or w.e, so am I (with girls though)...but like i just feel blah. i dont miss the realtionship just her, i miss the way my life was, ive changed since her and i dont like it, i like my old life, i want to tell her i miss her, and that i love her still after everything. Ok, you didn't commit a crime but you know by breaking NC you've clearly messed your head up for a very long time. You are going to feel like crap because nothing was resolved and you basically were listening to the woman you love go on and on about her life ...but you are not no longer a significant part of that life of hers??? What did you gain out of this conversation. Yet I do have one question, I can't resist asking. You were able to talk about everything under the sun but the most important thing like telling her that you miss her and that you love her...that wasn't important enough to get out. Talking about random **** was top priority. I mean if you're gonna break NC and nurture such a long conversation why not get to the heart and guts and not d*ck around?
Author CantDecide... Posted November 25, 2005 Author Posted November 25, 2005 my friend ifi had the answer to that question...well were we where in mid convoand her friend called her and she had to go we said we woul talk later...so if the convo had kept up i would probobly tried to bring it up...what do u guys think...talk to her again and bring it up or just leave it alone...im so confused...as much as ive tried to hide it the last month shes the world to me
NoFaith05 Posted November 25, 2005 Posted November 25, 2005 Breaking NC can be very detrimental to your emotional well being. Trust me, I know! But there are times when you sometimes just have to get that message across, no matter what. I wouldn't break NC for a casual conversation- it won't lead you anywhere. If you have the guts, and you can prepare yourself for rejection, and you know that you must tell this person how you feel, or else you will explode, then I think it is okay. Because you might regret never telling this person, and you might always wonder what would have happened if you did. Then again, you could end up regretting contacting her and telling her! It's a gamble- go with your gut.
rob missing rosie Posted November 25, 2005 Posted November 25, 2005 omg, that exactly the same as my situation!!! although my ex kisses all my best mates!!! i need the help to lol, is there anyway i can get her bak?
In Sync Posted November 25, 2005 Posted November 25, 2005 i know im crazy i know ibroke NC, but what would u do if u loved a person so much, and just wanted to tell them after 5 months, i mean i know im just gonna get burnt all over again but maybe i should ask her for cofee, or like a bite to eat, i just miss my girl, as much as theres time when i dont miss her i still think about her everyday, this sucks i hate my life...back to my vodka bottle....any comments?? and suggestions?? i know tell me im stupid Listen itchy fingers...yea you're stupid. hey you said to tell you and I'm telling you. Suggestion #1. Lay off the booze and all the other crap you're doing to divert attention from the pain you are feeling over the loss of this girl. Be a man and cry over it like we all are doing. I personally think if you are boozing + hooking up + this much in love..it's all out of avoidance. #2. Calling her now at that road to nowhere conversation is dumb. Looking for more confirmation that she's gone on are you. #3. Accept that you're sweet baby girl is a grown woman. Her life is her life and yours is yours. And the less information you know about her the better off you will be because my friend, your mind will play wicked tricks on you with all those images that you are now creating regarding her life. #4. When you get the urge to call her remember just how you are feeling now and multiply by 10 X. It won't get better. From someone who has been there..I don't want you to go through unnecessary hell.
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