brngme2life76 Posted November 24, 2005 Posted November 24, 2005 It has been a long time since I last posted or even came in to get advice. I am doing alot better since I was last here. Me and my H are still separated and no plans to reconciling. I am actually ok with this and am finding myself happier. No more of the hurt and pain when we were together. I have started dating. He on the other hand has been more depressed and I always thought he was going to be the one to happier since he is the one who left me. He knows I am dating and says he is ok with it just does not want to hear about it. I can understand that as I dont think I can hear about him dating either. We are working on becoming friends and so far it is working ok. I was in a inpatient program about a month ago for severe depression. I had to stay in the hospital for 1 week. I was always trapped in my bedroom for days with no contact to the outside world. I started to scare myself and said no more of this, I admitted myself. While I was in there I learned alot about my depression and how to deal with it with copeing skills and meds. I cant believe the way I feel now, like a rock had been lifted off of me and now I can breathe again. I do still miss him very much. I love and care for him but it is a different kind of love and care. Like as friends is how I see it. I dont know what I would do if he asked if he could come home. I am starting to open my eyes to a whole new life and I am embracing it with open arms. I need to be happy for me so I can be the kind of mom I want to be for our kids. I want to be a better person and not take my old problems into another relationship. I want to thank you all for the support you gave me when I was doing real real bad. It meant alot to me, really it did. I am probably going to need more as time goes on and hope to get advice as situations arise. Thank you again!!
Scott S Posted November 25, 2005 Posted November 25, 2005 Glad to read things are better for you, & that you were able to find help. Keep in touch too. We are as close as a PC.
Author brngme2life76 Posted November 26, 2005 Author Posted November 26, 2005 I will definatley come back and keep in touch with you all. I appreciate it more than anything. We all have been through this and know how it feels. So who better to talk to than people who are in the same boat or who have gone through it? I went out with my ex H last night and had a few beers and talked about alot of stuff with our marriage and our separation, it was a great conversation and we actually had a great time. Wow this friendship thing is good for people who want it and embrace it, well in my case anyway. I will be back, mark my word!!
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