PEShamhart Posted November 17, 2005 Posted November 17, 2005 I have been with the love of my life now for 7 years. We had the greatest start known to man. We knew what the other was thinking, and she was my soul mate and the only thing I cared about. Over the course of time she matured and I did not. I wanted to keep my video games and other stupid stuff which really did not mean that much. But they slowly took over my life. Now I am almost 25 have nothing to show for it and just lost the one thing which gave me purpose. I began to want to do my dorky stuff more than spend time with her. Soon I began to ignore her and not give her the things she needed and deserved. When she told me of her decision I broke down and cried for the first time in my life. It finally hit me that I had taken her for granted and always thought she would be there. I must be the stupidest man alive to through away a love like ours. I am not going to post a book, but I want all men out there to read this and understand that if you fail to give love freely, you will find yourself alone in this world. I can not lose her, the cost is more than I can bear. I learned all too late the things that were important in my life. I have been the biggest fool in history. All she ever wanted from me was some attention, and I was too busy to give it to her. I hope one day she will take me back, but right now she wants nothing to do with me. I can not live without her but I should have thought of that before I made my choice. Please any of you who read this, never forget what is important and never forget to tell them how much they mean to your life or you will end up like me alone cold and lonely in the wastelands of an empty heart. Paul
AriaIncognito Posted November 18, 2005 Posted November 18, 2005 I can sort of relate with what youre going through. My bf and I are currently "on a break" because I'm really not sure where this relationship can go, due to the fact that he refuses to grow up. Now, it wasn't exactly the same as your situation so to speak, he wasn't ignoring me for video games, but he did have very limited time for me to begin with due to his job (that he lost due to poor attendence -- another sign of irresponsibility and not growing up). The only words of "wisdom" I can offer you, are, if you YOU see your behavior as a problem, then try to correct it for YOURSELF. Don't do it in order to be accepted by your ex, or anyone else. It has to be for YOU, else you won't follow through with it. I hope you're able to heal quickly. Who knows, maybe this was the "wake up call" you needed to start your own process of growing and self awareness. Good luck to you. :-) Jennifer
BrainRightHeartWrong Posted November 18, 2005 Posted November 18, 2005 Paul, i sort of did the same myself about 6 years ago and broke up, it wasn't all my fault as she had her severe problems that looking back made our relationship impossible i did neglect her i suppose and only seen her 1 day or so a week, sometimes more sometimes less... anyhow after 6 years she calls me... thats besides the point! i did learn from this, my recent ex who has completely broken my heart i shared all my time with 24/7 and didn't repeat my mistakes, completely dedicated most of my time to BUT shes still gone! i never took her for granted as such, everyone does do this after a while, you just want to live and relax
Author PEShamhart Posted November 19, 2005 Author Posted November 19, 2005 (edited) My post was more of a warning to all men and women who put stupid things ahead of what really matters in life. I have already begun my change. I got rid of my xbox, poured out all of my alcohol, got rid of all the childish things in my life. I have never been happier! But the fact still remains that I have lost the love of my life. So I am telling every person I know both in my everyday life and on the net how I feel. My hopes are that someone will see this and not make the same mistake I did. What does all of those other things in your life mean without love? Are you prepared to lose it all because you can not let go of things that make you feel free? Ask yourself these questions and ask if the price is worth it. I can tell you from the pain I feel inside right now its not. If any of you have a significant other who suffere from the same obsessions I did, I beg you to have them e-mail me. Let me tell them the path they are headed down before they share in my pain. I beg of you all that if they ask for it, give them the chance to change. Once they realize what they are about to lose, I promise you they will. Paul Edited April 15, 2020 by a LoveShack.org Moderator Removed e-mail address
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