Jellostick Posted November 15, 2005 Posted November 15, 2005 Yeah, I was trying to avoid hating her but she really has left me no choice. A month ago she was showering me w/ kisses and telling me how much she loves me and telling me how much she misses me when I wasn't there. Yeah, I was happy and feeling like I had the best girlfriend in the world. Today I get an email from her, a response to a thoughtful email I sent her earlier in the day, and she pretty was rude, spiteful and pretty much seems like she wants nothing to do w/ me. Why was I sent this email? I have no idea, only she knows and frankly, I don't care anymore. I did the best I could do but obviously my best wasn't good enough because I felt disrespected and unwanted after getting her response. She's not worth it and I realize that now. She has issues that she won't admit to and because of that she used me. She used me as an excuse for her and she's still doing it. It's messed up but I know I'm better than that, that's my comfort. So yeah, screw her. I know I'm a good person and can make any women happy to be w/ me and it's her lose if her issues ruined our relationship. For her to treat me like crap after the fact, well, that's where the real anger is focused on but I'll feel good knowing she's a piece of garbage and I'm better than she is. For anyone out there going through a breakup, ask yourself is it really worth your pain and agony and anxiety and frustration? Hey, I'm sure some of you it is worth all of that and I'm happy for you 'cause perhaps that person is worth it. If you're in my position, it's not worth it and it will never be. I'm better than that and you're better than that and it hurts now but we'll be better and we'll make someone else happy and be in love again. Keep your sanity 'cause they're not worth it. I'm feeling fine knowing I'm better than she is. I'm feeling good knowing she's never change and will be the same a**hole that she has always been, that her friends know she is. If I knew now what I didn't know then, I would never have touched her. Live and learn. Hopefully I don't have a relapse but as of right now, I'm happy knowing she's gone and she's a miserable person who puts on a front that she's not. I'm happy knowing I'm better than that. My comfort is knowing that and believing in the only one that matters...me. Cheers.
NoFaith05 Posted November 15, 2005 Posted November 15, 2005 Wow. Did you and I date the same awful girl??
slubberdegullion Posted November 15, 2005 Posted November 15, 2005 You forget, Jello, that the opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference. Hating takes too much time and energy. So chill. Have a cigar.
Art_Critic Posted November 15, 2005 Posted November 15, 2005 Hate is such a strong word.. Nothing wrong with demonizing them though
Outcast Posted November 15, 2005 Posted November 15, 2005 I read some of your letter to her and her reply. It was not a rude reply at all. She just doesn't want to have you bothering her anymore, which you seem to have been doing. You're mad because she didn't write you an equally long letter back but she isn't going to. Hating her is only going to hurt you. Move on.
Author Jellostick Posted November 15, 2005 Author Posted November 15, 2005 Sorry to disagree w/ you, Outcast but I wasn't bothering her, it takes two to tango and her and I both made mistakes but I'm willing to accept what I did. I'm not mad that she didn't shoot me an equally long email, I'm upset at the bitterness she seems to have toward me now than she did a month ago. Is hate a strong word? Yes, it is so I would say that I'm very disappointed. Like many others here, they don't understand why things are the way they are and I just accept that I can only change me and no one else so it's not worth my time nor my energy to focus on her so I am moving on. Would I have liked for her to have acknowledge stuff I have written? Yes, that would have been nice but frankly, I'm focusing on me and she's not going to bring me down. I could have easily responded back w/ something harsh or left some of her stuff that she left over my place on her doorstep but that would only lower me and I'm better than that. I'm a better person now than I was before and I'm focusing my time and energy on me. You don't realize how much of a negative person she is and I don't want that negativity in my life. I'm what's more important here. Cheers.
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