Wywind Posted November 9, 2005 Posted November 9, 2005 Ok on Monday my b/f left me. Really without telling me a darn thing. He went to go visit family. Played even up to the point of Sunday night that he was coming back, it wasnt until i went to go check our bank account and credit card and stuff that i find everything shut down. Luckily there was none of my money in either case. But he called to have the cable shut off which includes my phone and internet access. Most of the day of Monday i was highly upset. Anywhere i looked , something reminded me of him and i started bawling. Yesterday most the day until evening i was the same way. Kept even pestering friends and just wanting to talk to ppl cuz i was hurting so bad. Even took the step to go see a shrink cuz i was a lil critical in my thoughts for awhile but eh, i am not the type person to really do something that stupid to myself or go out and do something to someone else. Today i am thinking to myself.. "THANK GOD, THIS IS OVER" and i hope his pecker rots off. lol Maybe the S.O.B. will realize what he had and lost but screw the idea with him coming back. Yeah it still hurts and believe me i've gone to one mood to the next all day but for everyone reading this. We all can get through this. You just have too. Even if they screwed you over, basically leaving you penniless. Mine sure did, and my credit sucked before he even got here so i am even more so having a hard time with getting there. I know its not easy for those of you that might have kids and stuff but there is help out there to get you back on your feet out there. The only thing i still do not understand is his reason of lying about coming back from his family visit until the day before.Then just cutting off all contact period, (no phone calls or emails) He's over 1800 miles away. What the heck can i do from here to him there. Anyway, most of his clothes got left behind. The computer he bought is the one i am using now. Its here, and darn it. I am keeping it. He owes me that much, least thats what my parents and friends think. I got like only a quarter tank of gas in my car, no money and no job right now but heck, i already got job interviews set up all over. Given they arent the best but fast food is work until something comes along. Anyway, i might be whiny and post still at times but for you all out there that are hurting. Spend your day of eatting, pigging out, and moping and start getting mad at what has happened. Not to the point of hurting yourself, or an other person, or even your valuables but just vent on friends. And try to stay mad for awhile at this person. Just realize how much they screwed up and it was never you. Least this is whats working for me. "Its not me, Its you." Just let that be your motto.
brittanyjean259 Posted November 10, 2005 Posted November 10, 2005 ouch, what a dirt bag that S.o.B. is...have you not talked to him at all???... eating and sitting around is all i can do from my break up, when it hits me again i meen...but ive gained weight from just PIGGING out haha
NrclptcNSmniak Posted November 10, 2005 Posted November 10, 2005 haha thats funny cuz ive lost weight ever since my break up... and im already really damn skinny.... this cant be healthy but every time i eat even a little.... i feel like ima barf it all back up..... i'm a guy.. 5'9" and like..... i think i dropped down to 118 or something.... since i haven't been excercising... i think ive lost a lot of muscle too... i used to be like 128 with like 10 percent body fat.....
brittanyjean259 Posted November 10, 2005 Posted November 10, 2005 yep, you eather loose weight, or you gaine it....my arms have gotten preety thick ,( well thicker)...they jiggle now" jiggle jiggle lol haha"... but all i want is food, i get excited, it makes me happy and i can never get full and to top it off i have no motivation im trying though
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