mrhaider Posted November 8, 2005 Posted November 8, 2005 I don't know where to post this message, here or the breaking up board so i posted it on both of em. Sorry mods so anyways, here goes nothing I was in a four year on and off relationship. Let’s just call this girl I’ve had "Mie". In any case we have had our ups and downs with this relationship. In any case I just needed a place to rant. This past January, Mie has had a birthday, and seeing how the caring person she is, she cheated with one of her exes on that day. We talked about it; I broke up with her, and got back with her a week later. I was unhappy because during intimate moments, all I can think about is her cheating. We were together until recently, I broke up with her over this past summer and I told her that I was unhappy and depressed with her because of what she did. Ill be honest with you folks, I was real messed up with her. I smoked a lot of pot and took anti-depressants to deal with her, now I’m trying to figure out whether or not I should stop the anti-depressants and the pot and if any of this is healthy. Eight weeks ago, she had nowhere to live (actually, she got kicked out of her parents house, and was waiting for this apartment to open up for her) so I took her in to my house. Mie lived with me for a good 3 1/2 weeks. Of course during that time, a lot of fooling around has been going on in my house. I had thought I had forgiven her about everything so I wanted to get back with her. She said no because she got hurt so much but she'll think about it. Fast forward 2 weeks later, she was at her new apartment which I helped her setup and do, and whatever. Anyhow, I slept there for a bit of time, I gave her my TV so that she can at least get some entertainment (I don’t watch TV much anymore). -I am very sorry if this is getting very long, but I am very hurt. If you guys keep reading ill need some of your peoples advice, because I haven’t really mentioned the fact that she was my first girlfriend, kisser, and all that other corny crap. SO in any case, last week Saturday, I tell Mie that I am going out with some of my friends. We have purchased furniture for her that day and I told her that I will finish setting it up the next day because I already was late. She got upset, and I left. I was driving back home, seeing the nice guy that I am, I cancelled with my friends, called Mie up, and told her I was coming back over to finish the job. She said no and that was fine. Next day I find out that she was went out with this other dude, and that they slept together on the same bed. She tells me that it was nothing, and the bruises she had on her arm was because she was playing punch with him and his friends at a bar. I finally confronted her about, like I said she said that the dude just slept the night over, well because he couldn’t get back to his house because it was 15 miles out of town (he came over by car) I told her she isn’t nothing but a liar (she tells me she never had the chance to tell me because we were always fighting.) I gave her all her stuff back. I don’t want to ever see her again. Am I right in feeling this seeing that we are not together? She says I am overtly jealous, but how can I not be given our history together. I am tired, sad, frustrated, depressed all at the same time. All I can do day in and day out is smoke up pot and forget about her. I want to write her a letter and give it to her about how I feel about everything and how much I am unhappy with her because of her immature behavior. I am not saying I am an angel, heck I am worst than that. But I don’t cheat on her or lie to her. She forgot about her jacket here, and I left some of my belongings at her place. I want to go over and have a chance for me to give her my letter. So if you guys read this, sorry if I bored you too much. I didn’t mean to write a whole novel. Just need to know a few things because I am so new at this game. I have no more confidence in myself to find someone else right now
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