Almost At The End Of The Line

[ONLYU_0315]

Okay i'm going to give you all a little pre info here. My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years now. We have a baby girl who is 8 months old, we have lived together almost the whole time we have known eachother. Either at his parents or wherever i lived he we bounced back and forth from house to house. We were party animals through our whole relationship. that's probably why we hit it off so well because we like to do the same things (get smashed do whatever) We we got pregnant when i was 18 and he was 22 my party life ended and he was an a**h*** to me my ENTIRE pregnancy.

 

Well after our daughter was born he straightend his act out became a wonderful father and the "home body" that i wanted. Well things have changed between us. A part of me really misses going and hanging out so once in a while and i mean like once every 2-3 months i will go out and get drunk with some friends. My boyfriend lost touch with all his friends b/c of me kind of. We hung out so much he stopped talking to everyone.

 

Well i pushed him to get this new job so he got and he met these terrible friends, decided to go out at 5pm and stayed out ALL NIGHT LONG until 6am. Came home all yaed out drunk as hell. and then acted like i didn't have a rite to be mad. Then half the reason i was mad is because he NEVER wants to go out with me. NEVER. But the first chance he got he went out all night long and still went to community service the next day (things he did along time ago before he met me) That was always his excuse why he didn't want to go out was because he has c/s. Then he told me very rude and blunt that HE DOESN'T WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME, OR GO TO THE CLUB, OR ANYTHING. My feeling were obviously hurt but i guess i just don't know what to do anymore.

 

He is always bitching about something, and it seems as if i can never do anything rite for him even if i try and he will always blame me for things that are his own fault and i stress that to him but it doesn't seem to change anything. i don't know if he has resentments towards me for some reason or what i just don't know what to do. This whole thing probably doesn't even make sence is so jumbled but i'm just desparate to somewhat know what he may be thinking. Any advice is GREATLY APPRECIATED!

THANKS