ScarredStar Posted October 25, 2005 Posted October 25, 2005 My boyfriend and I broke up a month ago. We were together for five amazing months and I don't regret a second of it. I finished it as I found out that he had feelings for another girl and she had the same feelings for him. They were kind of seeing each other behind my back, but I'm 100% positive that he did not kiss her like he said he didn't. Anyone else who knows him would be able to back me up on that, as he's simply a gentleman. I honestly thought I'd feel a good bit better by now, but I don't. He's now seeing this girl and anytime he or someone else tells me he's at hers, I get so upset. I've accepted that he's moved on, but it hurts so much. He's the first person that I've ever truly fallen in love with and I suppose that's why this hurts so bad. Since breaking up, I've lost 10 pounds in weight, I have no appetite and I feel terribly depressed. I even have suicidal thoughts at times; on one occassion I found myself on a bridge having a serious debate with myself. I've cried every day for the past month and at times I really feel that I can't go on without him. We're still friends and were still in contact. We have the same circle of friends anyway, so I wouldn't be able to cut him out of my life if I tried. I miss him terribly and love him so much. I don't know what to do.
meandmyself Posted October 25, 2005 Posted October 25, 2005 time. it takes time. lots and lots of time. one month isnt gonna cut it if you love him this much. love is time after all. as painfull as it may seem and as hard as it is, you will eventually move on and love others. he was your first love and thats why it hurts so much but dont do anything to hurt yourself or especially go jump off a bridge. Whats that going to do? Are yu willing to give up the rest of your life over a boy who obviously doesnt know how wonderful you are? Just picture yourself in a couple years. do u see yourself still crying over him? if so ur probrably a little obsessed. been there. done that. all you think about is him. know wut, youll get over it. just be yourself and let him see what hes missing. make him feel like a loser for ever wanting anther gitrl in the first place. but just trust me, it may take a while but youll find someone special who wont be as stupid .....and dont let him see you cry....just like the song, it's only weakness in his eyes...speaking of songs, ive found it make things harder when you listen to those beakup songs and also old notes that tell of happier times...Remember you broke up with him for a reason...Keep ur head held up high and smile....it il b just fine!!!
Author ScarredStar Posted November 5, 2005 Author Posted November 5, 2005 Just a quick update. I've been feeling a hell of a lot better in the past week or so. So many things that were bothering me have been resolved, I've started seeing someone else and I have the best friends in the world that anyone could ever ask for, I love them dearly. I'm getting over everything quicker than I thought I would. I feel great .
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