owen2005 Posted October 25, 2005 Posted October 25, 2005 well to make it short, i spilt with my ex 3-4 weeks ago, we were together for 17 monthes, i still care for her and when i split up with her i knew it was the right thing to do becuase i was all ocnfused and didnt know who i was. well anyway theres this other girl ruth that i like but ive layed of her and just gonna take my time becuase she knows i like her and stuff. Well anyway me and my ex decided we were gonna be freinds and still see each other know and then, well she asked me to go shopping in chester with her and for me to ring her on sunday but i just cudnt do it, i decided to do the no contact thingie. Well anyway she went with these 2 other lads from our school and i know that they are using her but i cudnt tell her becuz i didnt want to insult her. Well anyway i found out she was this guys house last night and i cudnt sleep so this morning i rang her becuase i needed to speak to her and she told that she wanked this dude and he fingered her stuff on sunday, the day i was meant to chester. The thing is it doesnt bother me that she is moving on its the fact that this dude a week b4 sed she was ugly and didnt like her, and he knows she still loves me and i still care for her, well anyway he used her and kept telling her to forget about me and stuff making her think that he liked her. Well anyway im soo angry becuz this dude has used her and stuff becuz my ex girlfreind tends to do this, like get with other ladz to get over a break up. the thing i im all confused and i dont know what i want know becuz, i know its best us being freinds but i care for her soo much i just wanna go bk with her to stop her getting used by other ladz. i still talk to my ex and im scared im giving her false hope and stuff which i totally dont intend to do becuase all ive sed is i need time to think and find out who i am and if i decide that i want you bk ill ask you and its up to you, if u dont ive lost you. well i dont know wtf to do becuase no contact is out of the question becuase we are both in the same course at school so i dont know what to do. i dont know if missing an ex after a breakup is normally and i feel like ill just run bk to her becuz i miss everything and then the problems will arise again. were going the picz l8er as freinds because she wants to see me and i dont know what to do, i am going and stuff but i dont know what i feel, i care for her loads and want her to happy and safe and such but i dont if a relationship is right atm. i still want to be freinds but will being freinds give her hope all the time. the main problem is , if i do no contact she will be vunreable and ladz will use her which i dont want and if i do the freinds she might get hope between us and i really cant promise anything cheers owen xxxxxx
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