unintentional Posted October 24, 2005 Posted October 24, 2005 Now I cry... When before..I was surprisingly feeling okay about not having him anymore... You all probably know my story already. I did love him. I still do. I guess Im in my denial stage..but I'm in denial about him ever loving me..I dont think he really did...and I dont think he does anymore. I was okay...and just yesterday my mom comes in my room in the morning.."He sent me a message talking about misery...and what not.." I felt hope...something I never wanted to feel for/with it all again. And now today..she shows me what they've been saying to eachother. I dont know what she was thinking... HE HASN'T REALLY BEEN SAYING MUCH OF ANYTHING!!!! In one message she wrote him a qoute talking about how empty our home feels without him...and his reply "Not lost, but misery has cought up with them.." WTF!? What does that mean!!? Who is them? My mom say's it's probably us...but WHY would he say that!? And she replied..then he replied...and said something along the lines of, "and yes, i hurt her..her heart fell out of the glass...who am i to say i didn't? who am i to say that i am what she really wanted?" WTF is that!!?? AGAIN!! COME ON BOY JUST KEEP TEARING ME APART!!! I WISH I NEVER HEARD OF THESE EMAILS!!! BECAUSE MY MOM MADE THEM SEE AS THOUGH THEY WERE SOMTHING WHEN THEY WERE NOTHING BUT HIM SAYING THAT BASICALLY HE'S FINE (he doesn't mention anything of him being sad!) AND HE'S JUST SAYING THAT HE'S AWARE THAT HE HURT ME!!! I GUESS HE'S FINE...THAT BOY IS PERFECTLY FINE WITHOUT ME! SO WHY DID HE EVEN HAVE TO REPLY AND TEAR ME UP AGAIN!!? HE MUST HAVE SOMEONE NEW. When will this all stop!!!?? or become what it is to become!!? I cannot bear this any longer... any wise words to shove this all in my face..go ahead say it..he doesn't want me, he doesn't need me..he's fine without me...he's probably got someone new...and hopefully i deserve better than this.
J dub Posted October 24, 2005 Posted October 24, 2005 > When will this all stop!!!?? Easy, when you say to your mom, hey mom...stop talking to my ex, k? This guy is a dud...he even talks to your MOM in that disgruntled poem-lyric-meets-super-depressed crap. You will have no problem meeting someone better than this fella.
Author unintentional Posted October 25, 2005 Author Posted October 25, 2005 haha..thankyou.. not only did you just be so blunt and tell me the truth but it gave me a little chuckle.. thankyou so much. love.
Author unintentional Posted October 25, 2005 Author Posted October 25, 2005 I did talk to my mom about the whole talking to him situation.. it tears me up to see him still communicating with her and getting her all worked up and feeling there is hope when i there PROBABLY really isn't... it didn't seem like there was any hope this last email he sent... So I told her that she should definitly stop communicating with her unless it's absolutely necessary because in the end it's only going to make her feel pain and sorrow and put more emotional stress and sorrow inside of me.. ...he's apparently fine... thankyou.
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