Don't you hate it when.....

[kittiekitkat]

ok so ive been dating this guy for almost 6 months. I really really really like him. And Im starting to fall head over heels in love with him. Hes Amazing. The problem is. This other guy that i was involved with a few years ago. We dated about 2 years...off and on. We used to fight constantly, we were once at a point that we hated each others guts. Well Before i started to date the guy i am with now, Me and the ex became friends again and start texting and talking to each other alot. Even online. I thought i was over him and i started to feel feelings towards him again and then he said that he still loved me and how its depressed him and everything. I believed him. Well then we were talking about getting back together.. But I knew it wouldn't work because the big reason we broke up is because we lived to far away and we both didn't have a way of seeing each other alot like we had been. Anyways i went with it being dumb gullible me. Well then he calls me up one night and we are talking and then he goes.. so i met this girl And i just wanted to let you know but i think me and her might hit it off. As a week after thier date ended i found out they were dating each other so i was like ok whatever.. I was talking to my now bf at the time but we were friends. Then we ened up dating each other. Well about a few months later , i found out online in his journal with 11/06/06 all over the place in his journal with smilies and im thinking.. i think hes getting married.. Sure enough i was right. Then i got mad at him. We sent emails back in forth to each other. I told him i was mad at him because i thought we were supposed to be together. I thought he loved me yada yada yada and so on. Well he said that if i can't be happy for him that i should just stop talking to him so i agreed to. I told him to have a great life. And he said thanks for a great 2003 and im like yeah you too.

 

Well. Days , months go by... We had ourselves listed as each others friends on myspace.com.(haven't heard of it.. http://www.myspace.com) And i took him off mine. Because i didn't wanna have to see him and be reminded all the time of what happened to us. Anyways. Again.. a few weeks go by and i forgot about him still being on my livejournal friends list and i see him talking about his new band(music is his life) and that he wrote a song about 2 years in the making and how this song has helped him get by and closed some chapters in his life. The light goes on the top of my head and im like yep its about me. (i mean not to be vain or anything but it was pretty obvious) and sure enough it was. He then proceeded to add his band on my myspace friends list and i was deciding if i should add them or not. So i did. I wanted to hear the song and see if he writes anymore songs about me. The song he did write wasn't that bad.

 

And Its my problem for going back and forth looking at his profile and band on myspace.

 

Anyways What im trying to say is.. I think im still in love with him.. and i don't wanna be. I hate the fact that im with someone that is amazing and treats me so great and with so many amazing feelings for him that i never wanna get rid of i want to be with him but all i still do is sit here wondering why me and my ex are not together.

 

I just need to close those chapters and move on in my life. But im also afraid that if i do.. if im making the wrong descision or if im supposed to be with him later on in life. I dunno anymore. It stresses me out.

 

Thanks for listening.

[oh_what_am_I_doing]

Sometimes our brains tell us that we've found the perfect guy: He's sweet, charming, great in bed... just an all-around five stars kind of guy. The problem is when our hearts don't buy into it. Trust me, I've been down that road. In college I dated this guy who was the biggest player ever, and after we broke up and he moved 3000 miles away, I met this awesome guy. He was so sweet to me. My brain was telling myself, "Wow, this guy is an awesome catch!" but my heart was still pining for the lying, cheating a-hole. Well I stayed with the "awesome catch" for four years. I still think he's a great person, he's just not the guy who lights my fire. I've learned my lesson. Don't ignore what your heart is telling you. Your ex is unavailable now, and you should give yourself some time to heal the wounds that remain. Once you're completely over him, you'll find another wonderful man.

[westernxer]

Seems like everyone's meeting on myspace these days.

 

I must be getting old...