CantDecide... Posted October 16, 2005 Posted October 16, 2005 Hey i havent really posted in a while, but latly i have been pretty good. if anybody knows my story, or parts of it, been apart for 3 months now. been doing Nc for a month but its been strict NC for 2 weeks. Im not really sure why im having a rough day, well actually i do. the other night i ran into my oldfriend the guy she hooked up with infront of me at a keg party. Him and i never spoke untill 2 nights ago. The conversatiion between me and him basically evaned things out, he apologized prefusely, and said what i did u just dont do to somebody who ur friends with or who u usto be. I said well yea it was messed up but w/e. He then said and man when that happened we were drunk, were not gonan be hooking up again, i dont want to do that to you. Then he asked if i thought me and ***** were ever gonan get back together. i said u know man, i dont know, w/e is ment to happens happens. He then told me u know ive become good friends with her and after talkign to you tonight., hes like theres still something between you guys, just the way she talks about you, and the way u talk about her. I then kinda opened up to him, (alcohol) and just told him that u know i am moving on but i still am in love with her and just wish she knew how mcu hi know i screwed up, and how much ive tried to be a better guy. and hes like u know man i dunno why but i wanan tell her what ursaying, hes like i feel like i owe it to you to say this to her after what i did. and im like well u can tell her how i feel or not, but this is how i feel. I just feel wierd now. Now i just want to call her but im not going to. I want to look at her myspace, i want to read her xanga. But i know none of this will do anything for me except put me at day 1 all over again. i dont know if he said anything to her about my feelings, i dont knwo what her reaction is, or was. i just know i love the girl like crazy, and evan though ive been going out, clubbing hanging with a lot of girls, i just know at night when i go to bed shes the one i think about. not as much as before, but its still there. Anbody have opinions or advice??
Author CantDecide... Posted October 17, 2005 Author Posted October 17, 2005 no opinions or thoughts or advice??
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