owen2005 Posted October 15, 2005 Posted October 15, 2005 Ive been single for nearly 2 weeks now and its great because i can do my own thing and stuff but theres this girl who im like majorly into, i just think she is gorgous and i really want her. well anyway its not as simple as that, she knows my ex girlfreind becuase we are all in the same college. well we went out last night me,casey,ruth(the 1 i want) and jay so their was only a couple of us and we were hitting the bars and stuff before we were gonna go the clubs. Well anyway my ex walks into the bar with all her m8s and they all look blaintly under 18 (just to clarifie i am old enough to drink) but ruth and that is only 17 so when my ex walked into the bar we were at she came over and started kicking of at ruth and stuff and because of this the manager of the bar asked us to leave if we didnt have id, which i had but ruth didnt so i left with them. Well anyhow we get outside and m ex is really kicking of at ruth even though ruth never did anything wrong. my ex was saying that ruth is stealing me of her.....when she isnt becuase i like ruth and i dont know if she likes me back so it has nothing to do with ruth. Well anyway we ended up getting kicked of the complex becuase of my ex kicking of and ****. I spoke to my ex and told her not to shout and scream at ruth or my freinds becuase it has nothing to do with them at all. Its me she should shout at becuase it was me who has the feelings for another girl. I told my ex clearly we will not be getting back together becuase she lost me by treating me like ****. So after we get kicked of the complex me and ruth and the others decided to go on a pub crawl around some bars which we did, then we ended up at caseys house and there was only 5 of us there. Well anyway i needed a toilet so i went upstairs to the toilet but after i went becuase i was soo drunk i was scared to go down the stairs on my own so i sat at the top of landing and i was there for like 5 mins then ruth came up and sat next to me. We started talking and stuff and i apologised for what my ex was doing. But i also told ruth everything i feel for her in person (i had already told her on msn a few nights b4) i was just telling her that i think she is gorgous and i envied her ex boyfreind for having such a special girl (her ex cheated on her, they were together nearly 2 years, but they split 7 monthes ago so shes over him) so i was just basically telling her everything and she just sat and listened saying she was soo shocked at me saying it to her so upfront without any hassle. She kept looking at me in my eyes and we were lying onto each other so we were kind of close, we talking for nealry 2 hours straght and she just kept saying why would u want me, im ugly n stuff like this. Well anyway all i wanted was atleast a small sign that ive got some chance becuase i dont wanna cling onto something as special as she is to me if nothing will surface from it. All i wanna know is what angle do i take know becuase ive tried everything, ive told her upfront what i think *but i think she thinks it was the alchol speaking and it wasnt* and she knows i really like her. so i dont know what to do becuase she works on weekends so i dont see her then, Friday was the only chance i got to see her this week apart from school and next friday she is at a party so that excludes then, i speak to all the time on msn she had known for 2 weeks now and she knows what i want and what i feel for her but she isnt giving me anything to go on, well maybe she is but i might be missing the signs. i need to know if i do have a chance becuase its not fair becuase she sits there for that long letting me tell her everything and deep down she might never wanna be with so i would like to know so i dont make a fool out of myself anymore. i realllllllly like her soo much its crazy, i dont ever remeber liking my ex as much as im into ruth now and i went out with my ex for 17 monthes. Ive liked ruth for nearly 4 monthes know shes flipping gorgous. :love: :love: :love: am i going to fast for ruth do yo think? is there any signs in what i wrote that could be she is slighty intrested? what should i do next becuase its bugging me and on my mind 24/7? any help would be extremly appreciated cheers!
Author owen2005 Posted October 15, 2005 Author Posted October 15, 2005 wow i never thought about that ^^
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