Fox Sake Posted January 19, 2021 Share Posted January 19, 2021 Sending some hugs @Gaeta I’m so sorry for you 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gaeta Posted January 20, 2021 Author Share Posted January 20, 2021 His ashes were ready to pick up today. It was done nicely in a wooden urn with his name in gold, it came with a poem and a small envelop with a bit of his fur. It was a very emotional day and night but it also feels good l know where he's resting now. I want to thank all of you for your kind words and support, it did help me go through the past days 🧡 6 Link to post Share on other sites
LivingWaterPlease Posted January 20, 2021 Share Posted January 20, 2021 Just saw this for the first time, Gaeta. I'm so sorry. You've had some tough days lately. Is your brother checking in on you? I'm thinking he lives fairly close by but the rest of your family is far away? Link to post Share on other sites
neowulf Posted January 20, 2021 Share Posted January 20, 2021 53 minutes ago, Gaeta said: His ashes were ready to pick up today. It was done nicely in a wooden urn with his name in gold, it came with a poem and a small envelop with a bit of his fur. It was a very emotional day and night but it also feels good l know where he's resting now. I want to thank all of you for your kind words and support, it did help me go through the past days 🧡 That sounds so lovely and respectful. I'm glad you have something to remember him by. I'm sorry for your loss. As someone who's wanted a dog for a long time now, but been unable to have one, I'm glad you got to experience your wonderful journey together. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Alpacalia Posted January 20, 2021 Share Posted January 20, 2021 9 hours ago, Gaeta said: His ashes were ready to pick up today. It was done nicely in a wooden urn with his name in gold, it came with a poem and a small envelop with a bit of his fur. It was a very emotional day and night but it also feels good l know where he's resting now. I want to thank all of you for your kind words and support, it did help me go through the past days 🧡 It's somewhat comforting when they personalize it, though it's still not easy. Maybe when you're feeling up to it you can plant a little tree in your backyard to honor his memory.🧡 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gaeta Posted January 20, 2021 Author Share Posted January 20, 2021 9 hours ago, LivingWaterPlease said: Is your brother checking in on you? I'm thinking he lives fairly close by but the rest of your family is far away? Yes my brother is checking up on me and my daughter calls me/text me each day, so as a couple of friends who've been through that. I can't see anyone as we are in total confinement with a curfew. I wish I could just hop in the car and drive to my daughter. We will know on Feb 8th if curfew continues or is lifted. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Allupinnit Posted January 20, 2021 Share Posted January 20, 2021 I'm so sorry. I have two babies and I dread the day I have to say good bye. Hugs to you during this crap season. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
LivingWaterPlease Posted January 20, 2021 Share Posted January 20, 2021 5 hours ago, Gaeta said: Yes my brother is checking up on me and my daughter calls me/text me each day, so as a couple of friends who've been through that. I can't see anyone as we are in total confinement with a curfew. I wish I could just hop in the car and drive to my daughter. We will know on Feb 8th if curfew continues or is lifted. I wish you could, too, Gaeta! Some hugs from her would be so healing and am sure she'd love having you close by! Maybe to cook one of her favorite dishes! Let's hope the curfew is lifted! Link to post Share on other sites
Noproblem Posted January 21, 2021 Share Posted January 21, 2021 (edited) I am so sorry for your loss. Can't imagine how hard it must be. My mom once brought 4 goldfish to the house and put them in small water bowl. It was so small and inhumane. I went and buy them a bigger tank with stones and other stuff. Although I only had them for few days, 2 of them died so soon. Later I knew that was called the new aquarium syndrome, I knew nothing about fish and it was never my choice to bring any to my life. I was devastated when I woke up and saw one of them dead, and then the next day another. I worked hard to prepare the best environment for the other fish, much bigger tank, better water quality, plants, better food. I tried everything to make the other two live, and they lived for two years, we loved them so much. Then It was time for us to move to another state and there was no way I could bear to have in a tank for the rest of their lives. I wanted to give them a better and free life. I found a good person with a beautiful pond who had fish and great ecosystem. There we let them go. It was a sad moment and I said to myself never again. I can't bear to have another pet and then lose them again. I still keep on contact with my Goldfish Fairy. He sends me photos of them and they grew up so fast. I am grateful for that. I am sure you gave your dog the best life you could ever give, I am sure the dog is in a better place now, watching over their beloved friend. Sorry for your loss again and stay strong. Edited January 21, 2021 by Noproblem 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gaeta Posted January 21, 2021 Author Share Posted January 21, 2021 It's a good sign that I can come back to this thread this morning without crying. I will not have a dog again. When my daughter was still a todler we got a shetland, omg what an amazing breed, she died at 10 from liver/kidney disease, pure breed dogs are often plaged with these genetic diseases. For 10+ years I refused to have another dog and put myself through losing it again but one day my daughter was 20is and preparing to move to her own apartment and it's when I got my cocker spaniel. I fell in love instantly! Spaniels are nothing like sheppard dogs, my shetland lived to please and obey me I did not even need to say a word she obeyed to sign language. Now, do I need to explain how erractic cockers are 🙂 He was so mischevious, energetic, challenging, he was a completely different experience. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
neowulf Posted January 21, 2021 Share Posted January 21, 2021 9 hours ago, Gaeta said: It's a good sign that I can come back to this thread this morning without crying. I will not have a dog again. When my daughter was still a todler we got a shetland, omg what an amazing breed, she died at 10 from liver/kidney disease, pure breed dogs are often plaged with these genetic diseases. For 10+ years I refused to have another dog and put myself through losing it again but one day my daughter was 20is and preparing to move to her own apartment and it's when I got my cocker spaniel. I fell in love instantly! Spaniels are nothing like sheppard dogs, my shetland lived to please and obey me I did not even need to say a word she obeyed to sign language. Now, do I need to explain how erractic cockers are 🙂 He was so mischevious, energetic, challenging, he was a completely different experience. They say the smarter the breed, the harder they are to train. You often see it in poodles and collies. While it makes them harder to control, they have such wonderful expressions of personality. I remember my childhood dog, a poodle/collie cross who was an absolute terror. We loved her so much, but she got herself into so much trouble. I'm glad you're feeling better today. Be well Gaeta. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
StrongHands Posted February 3, 2021 Share Posted February 3, 2021 On 1/13/2021 at 9:27 PM, Gaeta said: My heart is broken in thousands of little pieces. My beautiful cocker unexpectedly died today, he collapsed, I rushed to the emergency clinic and was told he was at the end of his 14 year journey 😭 I am beyond sad, he gave me so many beautiful years, I took him everywhere we were inseparable. I just want to drown in my sorrow. Within a month I lost a relationship I cherished and now my beloved dog. I can't see the day I'll stop crying. Just read this and I am sad as well.....I am so sorry Gaeta. I am a dog lover as well and they are such wonderful companions. "I see now that no person who has ever loved has ever been spared from tears".........your tears are symbols of the love you have for your wonderful dog 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gaeta Posted February 4, 2021 Author Share Posted February 4, 2021 It's been 3 weeks today. It's still really hard. Just typing about it on here brings tears. I was unable to go for a walk since he passed, I have to push myself tonight and go out for a bit, it will help to breath some air. We're in full confinement here with curfew and I step outside maybe once a week because I have to. My family, friends even neighbors call to check up on me and I can talk about losing my relationship but cannot 'at all' talk about losing my dog it makes me burst in tears. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gaeta Posted February 8, 2021 Author Share Posted February 8, 2021 I have been doing much better in the last few days then this morning I had this very vivid dream. I was in bed and heard a noise in the living room. I get up, head to the living room, it's dark so I turn on the light. The furniture are pushed around the room and packed as if I'm waiting for movers. Then my dog came out of the shadow all happy and came to me. He was beautiful, younger, healthy, the color of his coat was vibrant. I was so happy to see him, and him seeing me. I kneeled and said *how are you my boy* and I understood in my heart that he was ok and happy. I stood up and told him I miss him. He was looking at me but his eyes were rolled back in his head, like when he died and he went back into the shadow. I right away woke up and it was 6 am. I stayed in bed 30 minutes crying his loss, but it's ok now. It feels like I lost him yesterday. I looked up what dreaming of moving means and it's about feeling overwhelmed with current circumstances and it's also about changes we feel forced to go through. There was also something broken on the floor, that had created the noise, and it was orange. I looked it up and it means balance & positive energy. Grief is really unpredictable. Link to post Share on other sites
Marc878 Posted February 8, 2021 Share Posted February 8, 2021 That sucks but he lived 14 years so you must have taken very good care of him. Console yourself with that. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gaeta Posted February 8, 2021 Author Share Posted February 8, 2021 Thanks @Marc878 I have accepted death is part of life and it was his time. I was connected to him 14 years, he left a big empty space in my heart. Link to post Share on other sites
Marc878 Posted February 8, 2021 Share Posted February 8, 2021 I had to put down our 14 yr old Boston Terrier. It still haunts me. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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