My beloved dog died today

[Gaeta]

My heart is broken in thousands of little pieces. My beautiful cocker unexpectedly died today, he collapsed, I rushed to the emergency clinic and was told he was at the end of his 14 year journey 

I am beyond sad, he gave me so many beautiful years, I took him everywhere  we were inseparable. I just want to drown in my sorrow.

Within a month I lost a relationship I cherished and  now my beloved dog.   I can't see the day I'll stop crying. 

[Alpacalia]

I am so sorry to hear that your dog passed away.  It's so excruciatingly difficult losing a pet.

My heart goes out to you!

[ClearEyes-FullHeart]

So sorry Gaeta. Our pets are family and my heart goes out to you. Take comfort in the wonderful life you gave your beloved canine buddy and treasure the memories and all the wonderful lessons we learn from them. I have a beloved 12.5 year old lab so I understand the attachment.

[Ellener]

Sorry @Gaeta (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[Ruby Slippers]

I'm so sorry. What a crappy winter for you 

Growing up, we had a beautiful Cocker Spaniel. We once lost her in a cross-country move. My brother moved first, took her with him, and lost her in the new town. A year later, we were in the new town at the local college and found her. She was covered in mud and running loose, but it was her! Felt like a miracle. She was such a smart, sweet dog. 

Sometimes I wonder how long my 12-year-old cat will live. I have the best bond with her of any animal I've known. I already know it's going to be a terrible loss when she goes someday. I'm hoping she has many more years. 

(((hug)))

[FMW]

I'm so sorry @Gaeta 

[d0nnivain]

Oh heavens.  I want to crawl through the internet, give you a hug & let you cry.  I am so sorry about your cocker.  They are members of the family.  It sucks that their life spans are so short.  

 

[Gaeta]

I will have to change my avatar for a while, it just hurts too much to see his little face when I log in. 

[lana-banana]

Oh, Gaeta, I'm so sorry, but I'm so glad you had all those years together. Thank you for giving him a life full of love and support.

[Taramere]

So sorry, Gaeta.   All of us past of present parents of beloved furries know that terrible pain all too well.  When this has happened so close to a relationship breakdown and in the middle of lockdown, it will be particularly hard to deal with - and especially with a pet who has been part of your life for so long.  Nobody loves us quite the way a dog does...and even if we have a few dogs in our lifetime, each one holds its own special place in our heart.  Big hugs to you from thousands of miles away.

Edited January 14, 2021 by Taramere

[introverted1]

Oh no!  I'm so sorry Gaeta.  Pets are family.  I am sure you gave your dog a good life and will have many happy memories. 

{hugs}

[neowulf]

20 hours ago, Gaeta said:

My heart is broken in thousands of little pieces. My beautiful cocker unexpectedly died today, he collapsed, I rushed to the emergency clinic and was told he was at the end of his 14 year journey 

I am beyond sad, he gave me so many beautiful years, I took him everywhere  we were inseparable. I just want to drown in my sorrow.

Within a month I lost a relationship I cherished and  now my beloved dog.   I can't see the day I'll stop crying. 

Oh Gaeta... I am so, so sorry for your loss

Sometimes when life starts handing out suffering, I almost develop strange fatalism; "Yes of COURSE my dog of 14 years would die within a month of MY 5 YEAR RELATIONSHIP ENDING... because THAT'S LIFE RIGHT. HA. HA. f***ING. HA."

God... I can't even.

I'm sure you have many beautiful memories of your beloved friend.  Please, when you're ready, share your stories here. 

We'd love to hear about his life and times and help you celebrate your wonderful journey together.

Edited January 15, 2021 by neowulf

[Gaeta]

I slept a good 8 hours without waking up. I got something to help me sleep at the pharmacy earlier. I got up and felt better, it lasted 5 minutes. I cry all the time, I mean none stop from morning to night. I lost a part of myself. There is a huge empty hole in my heart. I unconsciously search for him all the time. I stare outside at his paw prints in the snow still there. I went to the bank without him for the first time this morning. There is 1 parking in front of the bank window and I always take it. He'd sit in the front seat and look at me inside without ever turning his eyes off of me. I know it's normal to feel that way and it will get better but for now he's absence hurts so much. 

[notbroken]

So hard to lose a pet we are close to.   They really are like a member of the family.  I'm sorry.  I'm sure you gave him a great life and can be grateful for all the joy you gave one another.  Best wishes.   Better days are ahead.  I know that's hard to see now but they are coming. 

[Gaeta]

I got my dog when my daughter moved out to her own apartment a big 14 years ago. I was single so all my love and energy went into my dog. I remained single for the following 8 years so for those 8 years life was him and I:  jogging together each day, dog parks, road trips together, climbing mountains together on weekends. You saw me, you saw him, we were a whole. Of course we were not that active all of his life, he got older so we toned it down and the past 2 years life was more about cuddling together & our little walks. He loved people and people loved him. I get phone calls from everywhere, my groomer, my vet clinic, my neighbors, friends & family. It's nice people understand the level of loss I am going through.  

[neowulf]

3 hours ago, Gaeta said:

I got my dog when my daughter moved out to her own apartment a big 14 years ago. I was single so all my love and energy went into my dog. I remained single for the following 8 years so for those 8 years life was him and I:  jogging together each day, dog parks, road trips together, climbing mountains together on weekends. You saw me, you saw him, we were a whole. Of course we were not that active all of his life, he got older so we toned it down and the past 2 years life was more about cuddling together & our little walks. He loved people and people loved him. I get phone calls from everywhere, my groomer, my vet clinic, my neighbors, friends & family. It's nice people understand the level of loss I am going through.  

I often feel like dogs embody some of the best qualities of humanity, while avoiding some of the worst.

They love unconditionally.  They don't get bored with us.  They don't cheat or betray us.  We are their family, their pack.  A dog loved well will never leave it's owners side.  We could never ask for more loyal friends and companions on our journey.  Our two species have walked the earth together for 14,000 years and will most likely walk 14,000 more.

It's clear from how you write of him that he was deeply loved.  He was family.  For what it's worth, he loved you too.  You gave him a wonderful life.

https://time.com/5342964/human-bond-dog-thoughts/

Edited January 15, 2021 by neowulf

[Pumaza]

Animals die at some point. We all knows that,And should accept that it happens and will happen.

But ofcorse its sad when the time is finally there. With time you will be ok.

All the best.

[basil67]

I'm so sorry Gaeta   

Our animals leave such a hole in our hearts when they go.  Big hugs to you xxx

[Veronica73]

Oh man...I'm so so sorry. I'm actually tearing up, because I know how it broke my heart when my soulmate dog died. Basil is right, they leave a hole in your heart. *hugs*

[alphamale]

On 1/13/2021 at 10:27 PM, Gaeta said:

My heart is broken in thousands of little pieces. My beautiful cocker unexpectedly died today, he collapsed, I rushed to the emergency clinic and was told he was at the end of his 14 year journey 

I am beyond sad, he gave me so many beautiful years, I took him everywhere  we were inseparable. I just want to drown in my sorrow.

Within a month I lost a relationship I cherished and  now my beloved dog.   I can't see the day I'll stop crying. 

I am so sorry Gaeta. Losing a beloved pet sucks!!

[hajk]

@Gaeta I am so sorry to hear about your pet and friend.  It is never an easy loss.  It is clear that you loved him very much and the fact that he got to spend his life with your love is all that matters now.  Take all the time you need and cherish the beautiful memories.

 

[Gaeta]

It's been a difficult weekend. Wednesday when he colapsed l tried to lift him off the ground to head to vet. I was in panic mode and pulled him up with all my strenght. I did not notice that night because of the adrenaline but i've badly pulled the muscles on my left side so for the last few days l've been dealing with a lot of physical pain. 

I knew his passing would be hard on me. I've been preparing for it for the past couple of years. I told myself often it will be hard but i've got bf with me and he's good at being comforting and he'll be my support.  Well That's not happenning and we know why. 

I will push through this, l know l will. Being in full confinement with curfew really don't help the process.

 

[neowulf]

45 minutes ago, Gaeta said:

It's been a difficult weekend. Wednesday when he colapsed l tried to lift him off the ground to head to vet. I was in panic mode and pulled him up with all my strenght. I did not notice that night because of the adrenaline but i've badly pulled the muscles on my left side so for the last few days l've been dealing with a lot of physical pain. 

I knew his passing would be hard on me. I've been preparing for it for the past couple of years. I told myself often it will be hard but i've got bf with me and he's good at being comforting and he'll be my support.  Well That's not happenning and we know why. 

I will push through this, l know l will. Being in full confinement with curfew really don't help the process.

 

Feels like it never ends some days doesn't it?  

One foot in front of the other I guess.  Being confined can be difficult.  I go a little stir crazy myself.  

I started doing virtual walking tours of things around the world just to take my mind off things.

Edited January 18, 2021 by neowulf

[Negotaurus]

Your pupper lived such a long, happy life. He must've been so SO loved!!

I have had so many pets throughout my life. Losing them is traumatising. And the pain that comes along with it is gut wrenching. 

I encourage you to take some time off every once in a while, then allow yourself to go down the memory lane once again. Think back at when you first got him, his weird quirks, how he took a piss indoors and drove you mad sometimes, your runs together, walks and car trips. Especially the cuddles! Let yourself feel all the love that grief, pain and loss are overpowering. Crying is good, but crying with a smile and a feeling of gratefulness will help you comfort your heart, even just a little bit. 

I hope this doesn't come off the wrong way. I fully acknowledge your pain, but this is what has always helped me - focusing on the love instead of the grief. 

You will get over the loss. But the love will never leave, it will always be there for you. Your fluffy friend must've lived one heck of a life. I'm so glad he had you. 

[hippychick3]

Oh Gaeta... I’m so very sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is like losing a family member. Sending you many many virtual (((hugs)))