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[deuce007]

my girlfriend of a year and a half broke up with me after a trying situation and i dont know how to handle it..we have had a fairy tale relationship all this time even how we met. after a month of dating she told e she loved me and i was in love with her and her 2 kids she was divorced for over 3 years and had 1 other relationship before me. in learning about eachother we realized our insecurities as far as past lovers who have cheated and lied to us.. anyway the day came a month in she told me she wanted to persue her ex boyfriend to see if there was something left there cause they had a history but she feels like she could be making a mistake.. i was floored she told me all the horrible things he did to her i couldnt believe she could concieve going back..anyway i handle it and showed her that i thought she had to go do what she had to do and let her know i loved her and my love was unconditional for her was the worst pain i had ever faced.. im 35 been in 4 long term relationships and realized this after all of them this girl to me was the one it was very special and we felt the same..anyway a month went by we work at the same place seen eachother in passing and said hi a few times then one night the phone rang it was her she wanted to talk and we did and reconciled and got back together.. it was awesome from then on it was like we picked up were we left off never fought about anything loved the time we spent together ..then i lost my job a year in and we decided to make a change and we wanted to move to fl we flew down i got 2 jobs down there and lived there for 2 months getting things ready for her to move with the kids everthing was on track we found a house in the process of movin in financialy though it was very tough trying to put everything together ..we talked 5 times or more a day and the thing that keep my going was her and knowing she was coming ..and she was excited but under alot of stress back home from family and friends mostly mom and dad who she lived with they didnt want her to go and take the kids away from them but they saw how much i did to to help there daughter and how i was with her kids and saw how much i loved her and id do anything for her...now heres where i screwed up ...she comes down 5 days before settlement and we go shopping for things we need i paid out everything and i was down to little money and was scared but did not want to show it because of the stress she was under ..i puchased her a rolex watch for christmas and it was the greatest gift she ever got ..i took the watch the night before to a pwan shop and made her think she lost it knowing i get it back in 3 days when i got paid ..i know that is unreal to even think about but i had reallly know other choice in my mind ..i tried to get the money many different ways but it did not work out..even called her brother that morning and he said he see if i could help and he didnt call me back instead he called her mom and she called her and must have told her to come home she lied to me about the movers coming and told me she was getting my birthday present and left and called me on my way to work and said she was getting on a plane right then to go home of course i freaked and went to the airport to stop her but it was too late. i lied to her about the watch and where it was and then the next day i came clean and told her i was sorry and came clean on what had happened and i should have told her the truth about us being short on money.and not to make her worry my intent was not to lie and to hurt her but to use the money for the house. i realize what i did and got an a plane 4 days after she said she did not want to talk to me anymore .. i went to her parents house where she was and explained and pleaded for our relationship and apoligized to her and her family and the kids ....i dont know what to do now i have not talked to her for the last 5 days and i am floored i lost my jobs in fl my things are down there im staying with a friend in nj 10 minutes away from her she had an operration a 5 days ago thats the last time i saw or tried to talk to her but i really didnt talk to her i talked to the parents they know i treated her like a queen during the relationship cause the father told me i was a good to her and thats why he is even talking to me.... i dont know what to do now i am devestated and have know idea how to save it

 

its been two weeks now and i have not contacted her and its very hard because she has been my love my all do i have any chance to get her back?

[J dub]

You took the watch u gave her for a gift, and pawned it, then LIED about it? What the heck did you need money so desperately for that you would STEAL from the one you claim you love? Fairy tales usually dont involve people leaving eachother, deceiving eachother, and the like. I think you have a distorted perspective of whats going on and perhaps need to seek help professionally...I am sorry if I sound blunt but you lost your jobs for her...you just dont sound emotionally stable ...