Completely ghosted. after 2 years. hurts very bad.

[elaine567]

I would drive over and see if she is OK. FB messages are no proof...especially when they are just silly memes and quotes.
Anyone with access to her account could post those.
OK you may find a bf or an irate husband but if she is dead and stuffed into a suitcase or kidnapped I think you will regret not looking for her at all.. 

[amerikajin]

1 hour ago, CTAtlanta said:

One of you told me to watch Coach Lee videos on YouTube.  I've been watching them a lot.  I really appreciate the insight.  He makes more sense than anything I've read or seen.  Of course it's not guaranteed, but the No Contact rule just makes sense.  So, although I've written out a long letter that nets out everything I'm feeling I'll just keep it to myself and I won't go over there.  Yes, I know she's fine as she posted on Facebook yesterday some quote, "If you feel like you don't fit in this world it's because you are here to help create a new one."  Not sure what the he** it means but I know she's alive and well.  I don't have any social media, but she was connected with my daughter and my daughter saw that she was active.  That's how I know.

I was definitely thinking no contact, but perhaps get one last word in, to tell your side of the story. If it were me, I'd probably want her to know how I feel and do whatever I can to get that message to her without risking a blowout confrontation. She obviously wants her space, so I'd give it to her, but I'd feel like I have a right to be heard, which is why I thought maybe one last letter or an email or voicemail. Something like "Look, this is the last time I'm going to reach out to you. But I just wanted to say, I don't think this is right. I wish we could meet or just talk on the phone for a bit. If there's something I said or did that upset you, I don't know what it is but I'd be willing to talk about it and listen. If you don't see a future together, it'll hurt but just let me know. I miss talking to you and seeing you, but I won't keep pushing this. You decide what you want to do now. If this is it, then have a good life." Or whatever.

That being said, this effort is certainly not required. If it's easier just to say nothing and move on, it's totally understandable. I only propose that because of the length of the relationship and the fact that the break was so sudden. If it were like a 2 or 3-month relationship, I'd chalk it up to her being a nutjob. But 2 or 3 years, you think you know something about the person, right?

Edited August 28, 2020 by amerikajin

[Uptown182]

8 hours ago, CTAtlanta said:

One of you told me to watch Coach Lee videos on YouTube.  I've been watching them a lot.  I really appreciate the insight.  He makes more sense than anything I've read or seen.  Of course it's not guaranteed, but the No Contact rule just makes sense.  So, although I've written out a long letter that nets out everything I'm feeling I'll just keep it to myself and I won't go over there.  Yes, I know she's fine as she posted on Facebook yesterday some quote, "If you feel like you don't fit in this world it's because you are here to help create a new one."  Not sure what the he** it means but I know she's alive and well.  I don't have any social media, but she was connected with my daughter and my daughter saw that she was active.  That's how I know.

Wise - I don't know why you find those things odd.  I have zero social media, which means I have two modes of contact...a phone and face to face...unless I go really old fashioned and send her a letter via snail mail.  I've also explained multiple times now that she has NO family here other than her 78 yr old non-English speaking grandma and her 2 kids.  Admittedly, looking back now in retrospect I should have met grandma by now.  I guess it was just not a big priority to me or her.  I never really thought about it because she didn't speak a word of English, and I thought it would be awkward.  Hindsight being 20-20...I should have.  That's 100% on me.  She also has very few friends, (if any).  We would typically visit my friends and family.  That said, I just never thought about her network of friends because she's an introverted person that's a homebody and only lived in GA for a couple of yrs and moved 3 times in that period.  I also agree with you that it's extremely odd for someone to disappear; otherwise, I wouldn't be here looking for advice.  Yes, we had our ups and downs like every couple.  We had disagreements, but there was never any yelling/shouting/cursing/physical, etc.  Our biggest issue BY FAR was the distance and only being able to see each other on the weekends.  She would get very frustrated because we couldn't spend more time together, but there is nothing I can do about that.  I can't move because I have an 8 yr old daughter at home with me and my legal papers say that if I move then I have to give up custody and I'm sure as hell not doing that!  On the other hand, she couldn't move because she needed to be close to her grandma to help her constantly.  Couple that with the fact that this Covid crap forces the kids to school from home virtually and we're both stuck at home working, caring for kids and loved ones...1 hour away from each other.  It takes a toll.  That said, she up and disappeared after spending the last weekend together telling me she loved me and then doing so throughout the week...up until last Saturday, which is the last time I heard from her.  I reached out to her multiple times via text, and voice msgs over a period of 3 days and not a single response.  I tried to send her an email via LinkedIn (which is the only social media I have) and she'd blocked me.  Again, I know she's not dead or she wouldn't be on Facebook.  So, what else am I supposed to do other than make the assumption she's written me off?

Glad you watched some of coach Lee’s videos, he’s great and he helped a lot in getting me through it.  I found watching him at night before I went to bed to be very therapeutic.

[CTAtlanta]

7 hours ago, schlumpy said:

I know this is off-the-wall but I'm looking for any type of influence since this was so sudden.

Is it possible that your Ex had something to do with this? I'm assuming of course that you are divorced and not widowed. How did she feel about this woman who was around her child?

Trying to cover all the bases.

 

Good question, Schlumpy

In the early days of our relationship she could, at times, annoy me to the Nth degree about my daughters mom.  I'm fortunate in that I do have a really good, and really platonic relationship with my daughters mom.  We get along fine.  I have ZERO interest in ever getting back with her; however, women that I have dated in the past (including this ex that ghosted me) had issues with my daughters mom...primarily because we didn't hate each other, and because we actually got along and respected each other...which is what is really supposed to happen when kids are involved.  It took her a while, but she eventually got over it once they met each other and when my ghost-ex met my daughters mom's fiance.  I don't know why but the women I've all dated expect me to hate my daughters mom and for her to hate me.  If you get along with baby-mama then it's instantly an issue and they all instantly assume you're going to go running back to baby-mama one day.  IMHO it's actually just low self-esteem at play.  That said, once she realized there was no threat then she cooled off and they became "friends"...and I say that loosely.

Day 7...still not a single word.  I'm still in utter shock.

[amerikajin]

8 minutes ago, CTAtlanta said:

Good question, Schlumpy

In the early days of our relationship she could, at times, annoy me to the Nth degree about my daughters mom.  I'm fortunate in that I do have a really good, and really platonic relationship with my daughters mom.  We get along fine.  I have ZERO interest in ever getting back with her; however, women that I have dated in the past (including this ex that ghosted me) had issues with my daughters mom...primarily because we didn't hate each other, and because we actually got along and respected each other...which is what is really supposed to happen when kids are involved.  It took her a while, but she eventually got over it once they met each other and when my ghost-ex met my daughters mom's fiance.  I don't know why but the women I've all dated expect me to hate my daughters mom and for her to hate me.  If you get along with baby-mama then it's instantly an issue and they all instantly assume you're going to go running back to baby-mama one day.  IMHO it's actually just low self-esteem at play.  That said, once she realized there was no threat then she cooled off and they became "friends"...and I say that loosely.

Day 7...still not a single word.  I'm still in utter shock.

Anyone who meets you and knows you have children certainly has to accept that your ex is going to be involved in your life. I could certainly understand it if your girlfriend (this one or any in the future) wondered what she's like and maybe felt a little anxious about encountering your ex. It's always dicey when the new gf/by is meeting an ex for the first time. But to expect someone to dislike their ex and to want you to limit contact or cut them out is childish. That, IMO, would be a warning sign. Just putting that out there for future reference.

[CTAtlanta]

6 hours ago, amerikajin said:

I was definitely thinking no contact, but perhaps get one last word in, to tell your side of the story. If it were me, I'd probably want her to know how I feel and do whatever I can to get that message to her without risking a blowout confrontation. She obviously wants her space, so I'd give it to her, but I'd feel like I have a right to be heard, which is why I thought maybe one last letter or an email or voicemail. Something like "Look, this is the last time I'm going to reach out to you. But I just wanted to say, I don't think this is right. I wish we could meet or just talk on the phone for a bit. If there's something I said or did that upset you, I don't know what it is but I'd be willing to talk about it and listen. If you don't see a future together, it'll hurt but just let me know. I miss talking to you and seeing you, but I won't keep pushing this. You decide what you want to do now. If this is it, then have a good life." Or whatever.

That being said, this effort is certainly not required. If it's easier just to say nothing and move on, it's totally understandable. I only propose that because of the length of the relationship and the fact that the break was so sudden. If it were like a 2 or 3-month relationship, I'd chalk it up to her being a nutjob. But 2 or 3 years, you think you know something about the person, right?

Trust me, I struggle with that every hour of every day.  Do I text/call or go by just one more time...or do I continue with the NC?

I really have been watching a ton of Coach Lee's videos on YouTube.  I've been swayed into his corner as he's made some really good points.  She made this choice...not me.  She's had a week to reach out to me.  I made multiple attempts Saturday-Monday...with Monday being my last attempt.  I called and left voice msgs twice and sent at least 3 different text msgs with the last one letting her know that I believed that she's moved on without me, I didn't understand why, etc etc. 

My oldest daughter had a nice relationship with ghost-ex and she was worried about me so she reached out to ghost-ex 2 days ago via Snapchat...without me knowing until after the fact.  No response. So, I think Coach Lee would say that she's made it clear that she doesn't want to speak with me and if I go there or write her, text her, call her...then it will only push her further away and/or make me look like a pathetic, weakling.

Despite it all, there are days like today that I nearly cave.  When I'm alone (like now) and the silence in this house is deafening.  I don't even want to go to bed because I'm so used to her being up against me and feeling her next to me.  Now it's just a big, cold, empty bed...and I hate it.  It feels like a building on my chest weighing me down.  I literally want to drive over there or pick up the phone and try just once more...but I talk myself out of it.  I've never done drugs, but this (to me) is like being an addict and you simply can't resist the temptation to want to call/text/drive by...it's just about unbearable.  The hardest thing I've had to do.

[amerikajin]

2 minutes ago, CTAtlanta said:

Trust me, I struggle with that every hour of every day.  Do I text/call or go by just one more time...or do I continue with the NC?

I really have been watching a ton of Coach Lee's videos on YouTube.  I've been swayed into his corner as he's made some really good points.  She made this choice...not me.  She's had a week to reach out to me.  I made multiple attempts Saturday-Monday...with Monday being my last attempt.  I called and left voice msgs twice and sent at least 3 different text msgs with the last one letting her know that I believed that she's moved on without me, I didn't understand why, etc etc. 

My oldest daughter had a nice relationship with ghost-ex and she was worried about me so she reached out to ghost-ex 2 days ago via Snapchat...without me knowing until after the fact.  No response. So, I think Coach Lee would say that she's made it clear that she doesn't want to speak with me and if I go there or write her, text her, call her...then it will only push her further away and/or make me look like a pathetic, weakling.

Despite it all, there are days like today that I nearly cave.  When I'm alone (like now) and the silence in this house is deafening.  I don't even want to go to bed because I'm so used to her being up against me and feeling her next to me.  Now it's just a big, cold, empty bed...and I hate it.  It feels like a building on my chest weighing me down.  I literally want to drive over there or pick up the phone and try just once more...but I talk myself out of it.  I've never done drugs, but this (to me) is like being an addict and you simply can't resist the temptation to want to call/text/drive by...it's just about unbearable.  The hardest thing I've had to do.

I definitely agree that you'll have to go dark, and pretty soon. I guess it's just a matter of whether it's right now or a little later, but you're the one dealing with this nonsense. If now's the time, now's the time.

[CTAtlanta]

2 minutes ago, amerikajin said:

Anyone who meets you and knows you have children certainly has to accept that your ex is going to be involved in your life. I could certainly understand it if your girlfriend (this one or any in the future) wondered what she's like and maybe felt a little anxious about encountering your ex. It's always dicey when the new gf/by is meeting an ex for the first time. But to expect someone to dislike their ex and to want you to limit contact or cut them out is childish. That, IMO, would be a warning sign. Just putting that out there for future reference.

Yes, it's definitely a great point you've made, Amerikajin.

I think because she and her ex had the kind of relationship where they didn't get along well, etc...then the expectation is all ex's are like that.  I can tell you that every woman I dated more than a few months - with the exception of one - had the same reaction.  They all were worried that I would just wake up one morning and run back to my daughters mom...9 yrs after we split.  It's just insane.  Of course, I'd always have to go to great lengths to prove I was not going back to my daughters mom.  It can be very difficult at times.

[amerikajin]

People give you little clues along the way about who they really are. She could have been the kindest, most sensitive lover when you all met, but little clues will be there - like expecting you to hate your children's mother. Unless their mother's abusive or wanted by the FBI, she shouldn't have those kinds of thoughts.

[Ruby Slippers]

9 hours ago, CTAtlanta said:

Yes, I know she's fine as she posted on Facebook yesterday some quote, "If you feel like you don't fit in this world it's because you are here to help create a new one."  Not sure what the he** it means but I know she's alive and well.

I get the impression she didn't see this relationship as being a good fit for her, herself being a good fit for it. She was fading out recently because this was starting to sink in for her. She hasn't been in touch because while you're a good guy and "good on paper," this just wasn't cutting it for her for some reason and she didn't want to hurt you by breaking it off. I think she thinks fading/ghosting is less hurtful.

I definitely don't think confronting her is a good idea. Her actions have spoken loudly. Your closure will have to come from within, as all closure ultimately does. 

[Wiseman2]

Agree. It does seem she was ambivalent but never articulated it. Perhaps the cultural difference was more of a barrier than you thought.

It could have simply been easier for her to do it this way rather than express her concerns about it to you. You seem to win most of your arguments.

She may want to be with someone who understands her world and culture better. Maybe she didn't want to just visit your house go on your boat hang with your kids meet your exes,etc as if she were just the help.

Maybe she wants someone who speaks her language and can make a commitment.

Edited August 29, 2020 by Wiseman2

[ExpatInItaly]

9 hours ago, CTAtlanta said:

but this (to me) is like being an addict and you simply can't resist the temptation to want to call/text/drive by...it's just about unbearable.  

Why not just drive by, then? 

I don't think it's crazy to try to speak in person when your girlfriend of 2 years vanishes with no explanation. 

[Wiseman2]

3 minutes ago, ExpatInItaly said:

Why not just drive by, then? 

I don't think it's crazy to try to speak in person when your girlfriend of 2 years vanishes with no explanation. 

This is not a good idea. Stalking or drive bys. is just plain creepy.

[schlumpy]

It would be better for you in the long run if you can resist the urge to confront her but I know how difficult that can be.

I still think that you will find out what happened but if you can't wait, then find out. Just don't involve yourself.

Hire a PI to do it.

It shouldn't take more then two or three days and then you will be able to move on as well as be armed with knowledge if she attempts to drop back in out the of blue.

It's cheaper to run silent and run deep.

Make sure you change your relationship status on FB and let everyone know you are available.

Someone may be waiting for a chance. That's what I would rather dwell on.

[CTAtlanta]

First - thank you, all.  Great advice from everyone.  You don't realize how much it helps during times like this.  Have barely slept in a week and lost 10 lbs to date...

I'll try to respond to everyone's questions/comments here.

Yes, there were little clues along the way...but I don't believe there's ever a relationship in history where there aren't moments where you say, "Hmmm...that's a little concerning!".  Everyone we meet will have good/bad things about them.  The question is do the good things outweigh the bad?  In her case...yes, there were things that bugged me but the good things far outweighed the bad.  In fact, she said the exact same thing to me once.  There were things about me that bugged her but the things she loved about me far outweighed the bad.  I think that can be said of all relationships.

Yes, sometimes there were tiny cultural/language issues that popped up from time to time.  Sometimes we had difficulty understanding each other via texts that would be taken out of context.  Sometimes I'd tell a joke and she would take it literally and then I'd spend hours in the doghouse trying to explain it.  I remember once I told her that her daughter was so cute, and that she must have taken after dad. lol  It was just a little joke...and most people can laugh about silly things like that.  I've had it said to me before about my daughter and I just laugh it off!  She, on the other hand, took it completely literally...so there were things like that which I had to always make sure I treaded lightly on.  I think that happens to any couple that come from different cultures/languages.  There will always be barriers to overcome...even if you both have same culture/language.

Yes, there were also a couple of instances over our 2 yr period where we didn't speak for several days; however, this occurs with couples that have been happily married for decades.  It's just part of life.  She did tell me many times that she wanted more out of our relationship, and wanted more of a commitment from me.  I never could understand that and we had many long conversations about it.  I dated her exclusively, told her I loved her, told her I wanted a future with her,  envisioned growing old together, we looked for mtn property together to build on one day, etc.  So, I'd say that my actions indicated I was pretty damn committed!  Nonetheless, as I've mentioned many times before, there was this distance factor of 1 hour between us, which I think was by far the biggest factor in our demise.  She couldn't move closer to me because of her needing to care for her grandmother, and I certainly couldn't move because of my legal docs with my ex that stated that if I moved then I lost custody of our daughter.  So, it just sucked!  I never knew how to give her more of a commitment than what I was giving her.  I casually brought up the term "marriage" once and her immediate reaction was negative.  She'd been married twice now.  She got married when she was around 21 and it lasted a short time because he was in the military and they never saw each other.  Her second marriage lasted 7 yrs...so the thought of marriage was just not something that interested her.  I was okay with that, too.  I was in no rush to get married either, but since she wanted more of a commitment from me I wanted to at least broach the subject with her.  So, how could I give her more of a commitment than what I was giving her???  Since I couldn't move closer to her due to legal obligations...the only option was for her to move here...so we talked several times about her moving her grandma to Florida near her family there.  That would alleviate her from having to live 1 hour from here, and she could move here.  We talked of taking a trip to FL with her grandma around Christmas so she could look around down there for a place...but unfortunately that plan never came to fruition.  I just don't know how I could have given her more of a commitment or done more.

I'm just trying to stick to the NC rule that Coach Lee advises.  It makes sense.  I don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not, but I don't have a magic crystal ball so I'll just let it run its course.  Hope everyone has a good Saturday.  I had plans to get out today just to stay busy...but it's pouring rain.  So, I just get to sit inside the house pining away.  This sucks so bad.

Edited August 29, 2020 by CTAtlanta

[elaine567]

I think sticking to NC is great if you had a proper break up but this not knowing what happened is going to drive you crazy.

 

[Wiseman2]

It's good you are reflecting on some of the unresolved issues such as language/culture, commitment etc.  She may have given up hoping you would do the things you talked about but never came to be. For example you never asked her about moving in.

The more that comes to light the more it seems like she simply left out of frustration, both with the sense of humor thing and commitment thing and probably many other things. Overall although there were some good times it seems there were a lot of misunderstandings and incompatibilities. 

You don't need drive bys, PIs, letters, confrontations, etc. She was generally unhappy and took off, so it's not a mystery what happened to her. Took off in an abrupt way, but ended it nonetheless.

[amerikajin]

1 hour ago, CTAtlanta said:

Yes, there were also a couple of instances over our 2 yr period where we didn't speak for several days; however, this occurs with couples that have been happily married for decades.  It's just part of life.  She did tell me many times that she wanted more out of our relationship, and wanted more of a commitment from me.  I never could understand that and we had many long conversations about it.  I dated her exclusively, told her I loved her, told her I wanted a future with her,  envisioned growing old together, we looked for mtn property together to build on one day, etc.  So, I'd say that my actions indicated I was pretty damn committed!  Nonetheless, as I've mentioned many times before, there was this distance factor of 1 hour between us, which I think was by far the biggest factor in our demise.  She couldn't move closer to me because of her needing to care for her grandmother, and I certainly couldn't move because of my legal docs with my ex that stated that if I moved then I lost custody of our daughter.  So, it just sucked!  I never knew how to give her more of a commitment than what I was giving her.  I casually brought up the term "marriage" once and her immediate reaction was negative.  She'd been married twice now.  She got married when she was around 21 and it lasted a short time because he was in the military and they never saw each other.  Her second marriage lasted 7 yrs...so the thought of marriage was just not something that interested her.  I was okay with that, too.  I was in no rush to get married either, but since she wanted more of a commitment from me I wanted to at least broach the subject with her.  So, how could I give her more of a commitment than what I was giving her???  Since I couldn't move closer to her due to legal obligations...the only option was for her to move here...so we talked several times about her moving her grandma to Florida near her family there.  That would alleviate her from having to live 1 hour from here, and she could move here.  We talked of taking a trip to FL with her grandma around Christmas so she could look around down there for a place...but unfortunately that plan never came to fruition.  I just don't know how I could have given her more of a commitment or done more.

I'm just trying to stick to the NC rule that Coach Lee advises.  It makes sense.  I don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not, but I don't have a magic crystal ball so I'll just let it run its course.  Hope everyone has a good Saturday.  I had plans to get out today just to stay busy...but it's pouring rain.  So, I just get to sit inside the house pining away.  This sucks so bad.

I see more warning signs.

1) Didn't talk for days? Yes, that happens, but it's not part of a healthy committed relationship. That's a sign of holding grudges and not being able to communicate at a basic level. I'm not lecturing - I've been in that situation before, but just to be clear: it's not a good sign - at all. Ever. If you're in a relationship in which that happens even occasionally, that's a sign that something really needs to be worked out.

2) She's been married twice? Dude, trust me - she's got issues. Even if she's not to blame, she clearly isn't good at picking someone who is compatible with her needs and interests, which tells me that, at minimum, she doesn't know what she wants or expects out of a relationship. I don't mean that as an insult to you - far from it. I'm saying it's on her: she doesn't know what she wants, which puts you in an unfair situation of trying to figure her out. So then you come along, thinking that you're gonna make an honest go of it, but instead you're dealing with her baggage of 2 broken marriages. Personally, I think if someone has been through two marriages, in my book, I'd need to have a really good explanation as to why they didn't work out, especially the second one.

What it seems like to me is that the entanglements of your situation (not being able to see each other), having parental obligations, and baggage from previous relationships all combined to cause her to doubt the relationship. She should have had the decency to tell you this, but in her defense (and I'm not really defending her), sometimes language and cultural barriers make delicate conversations like this extremely difficult.

Edited August 29, 2020 by amerikajin

[amerikajin]

1 hour ago, Wiseman2 said:

It's good you are reflecting on some of the unresolved issues such as language/culture, commitment etc.  She may have given up hoping you would do the things you talked about but never came to be. For example you never asked her about moving in.

The more that comes to light the more it seems like she simply left out of frustration, both with the sense of humor thing and commitment thing and probably many other things. Overall although there were some good times it seems there were a lot of misunderstandings and incompatibilities. 

You don't need drive bys, PIs, letters, confrontations, etc. She was generally unhappy and took off, so it's not a mystery what happened to her. Took off in an abrupt way, but ended it nonetheless.

Yeah, I agree. I think there were some missed signs. I would have probably missed these signs myself, so I'm not piling on the OP. When we care about someone, we tend to ignore what our eyes, ears, and brains are telling us. But the signs were probably there, and I think your analysis is correct.

[Ruby Slippers]

I agree that the fact that she has two failed marriages behind her says a lot. 

It sounds to me like you were really trying to make this work but for her it just wasn't. I get the feeling she didn't talk about it because she could see that logistical issues with kids/family were an obstacle you couldn't overcome to her satisfaction. In other words, in her view there was no real solution, so she checked out. 

[Watercolors]

I see so many red flags from both the OP and his ex's side that I think this relationship was never going to last for long-term. It is unfortunate for the OP that his ex just ended things without having an adult conversation with the OP first, so that he at least understood why she needed to end things. But, moving forward, the OP can stick to No Contact, and use the time to process and heal. 

[Uptown182]

OP it took about two weeks for me to get rid of the urge to contact my ex after he ghosted me.  So just hang in there another week.  Every time you have the urge to contact her just tell yourself you’ll sleep on it and if you still want to contact her the next day you can.  I found that to be very helpful because by the next day I always changed my mind and was glad I didn’t contact him.  
 

I do believe she will contact you it’s just a matter of when.  In the meantime you need to try keep yourself occupied.  

[CTAtlanta]

Thank you again, everyone.

I'm really glad I found this website.  I hate to say it...but nice to find others that can empathize.  Not that I'd want anyone to go what I'm going through, but it's still nice hearing from those that can provide advice after having gone through it themselves.

I ended up spontaneously packing my bag at noon and driving 2 hours out to the family farm and spent the weekend out there with family.  Had a great time and it took my mind off things almost completely.  I'm back home now, but unfortunately, my daughter wasn't feeling well early last week so took her to get tested and results are back that did contract Covid-19.  I think I have it now, too.  Feels like a really bad case of flu with nonstop coughing.  Nothing like having a broken heart, sitting at home alone in the pouring rain with Covid.  Murphy's Law in full effect...

[amerikajin]

57 minutes ago, CTAtlanta said:

Thank you again, everyone.

I'm really glad I found this website.  I hate to say it...but nice to find others that can empathize.  Not that I'd want anyone to go what I'm going through, but it's still nice hearing from those that can provide advice after having gone through it themselves.

I ended up spontaneously packing my bag at noon and driving 2 hours out to the family farm and spent the weekend out there with family.  Had a great time and it took my mind off things almost completely.  I'm back home now, but unfortunately, my daughter wasn't feeling well early last week so took her to get tested and results are back that did contract Covid-19.  I think I have it now, too.  Feels like a really bad case of flu with nonstop coughing.  Nothing like having a broken heart, sitting at home alone in the pouring rain with Covid.  Murphy's Law in full effect...

Damn, be safe, man. Go to the hospital if you have to.

[Watercolors]

Sorry to hear about the dual Covid diagnosis. Sending you healing thoughts for you and your daughter.