qubes1 Posted August 22, 2020 Posted August 22, 2020 When I was a kid I met a girl online, let's call her Mary. She lives several hours away from me, which is why we could hardly see each other. Over the course of 1 year we became friends. We both really enjoyed gaming, so we used to talk hours every day via Teamspeak. At some time we wanted to get to know each other in real life. As it turned out She lived where I went on vacation every summer. On the day we wanted to meet, she did claim that she was sick and did not want to infect me. Because of this, my parents and I did something different. We didn't have any contact for the rest of the year, but at my Birthday she wrote me an apology that said, that she hoped to be able to laugh with me again as before. That was when we were 14 or something.Time passed and I made new friends at school. Two years later, I wrote Mary again because I wanted to see how she was and I missed her. So we got closer again and often talked to each other on Skype. As I already said we both loved video games, which is why we always played together late into the night. At some point I started to like her a little more, which I also told her. In all honesty, we never really talked about it though because we both probably knew that a long-distance relationship would be difficult. We often argued about the stupidest things too. We were both a bit childish and instead of talking openly about problems we made ironic jokes about it. About a year after I contacted her the second time, we felt that we should meet. So we agreed that she would come to me for the holidays and that we would go to the amusement park and play video games together. When she was with me, I always felt the urge to hug her, because I used to be a pretty lonely person, especially in my childhood. There was a little awkward silence between us the whole time, because she had been friend-zoning me for a long time and I didn't know what to do. The time we spent together is still one of my favourite memories for me. Unfortunately she often wanted do things in a group with my best friend, who she didn't even know that good. She got along better with my friend than with me, which really pissed me off. I wanted to meet her for so years and she stuck to my best friend like a burdock. Even though he knew that I really liked her. After a week we had to take her back to the train station so Mary could go back home. I tried to kiss her (I know, that I was dumb xD), but she turned her head aside, which was really akward... A couple of weeks passed and she pretended nothing had happened.One evening we talked about friends who had a fight and then we had a really ridiculous little argument because we were on different sides in our friends' argument. Then she hung up and we have never written to each other since. I know this whole story is a bit childish. Actually I always hoped that she would text me again, because most of the times I texted her first. It's been three years since and I still miss her. But I know she's fine because she has a lot of friends and is constantly traveling to cool places. That's why I'm not sure whether it will do anything to write to her. Between all of Mary's friends, I always felt so replaceable. What should I do?
Ostepop Posted August 28, 2020 Posted August 28, 2020 I wouldn't do anything if i were you. You tried and it didn't work, and she seemed more interested in your friend (why did you bring your friend?). For me this would be a dealbreaker and i'd feel more than a little jealous. Life will present more opportunities as you go along, live and learn.
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