samski3409 Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Hey all, Some of you my know my story already,so i won't go too much into the break upt.but i'm really having a tough time today. it's been over four months of NC for me.although i have been feeling better lately today i don't. On Thursday night i got a phone call from her.i actually almost answered the phone,because I've since deleted all her numbers and names from everything. but i did realize that it was her number right before,so i didn't pick up.she left no message at all,so i have no idea what she wanted. for a while after i started NC she would text and stuff but i haven't heard i peep in months. i just can't believe how much seeing that she called me has had such an effect on me. I'm not going to respond to her feeble attempt at contact ,but i still can not get her out of my mind!! Why the hell did she have to call me? what does she want with me? I still love her very much but i know that it's bad news and she had plenty of chances to make it right with me.all the while i was trying to get her back she did nothing but continue to hurt me.she did this and continued to say she loved me more then anything and that i was the most awesome person she knows. I don't freaking know.i just had to vent though.thanks for listening.
Drivetildriven Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Hang in there man. Feeble is a good word for it. If what she was calling about was that important, she try a lot harder to contact you. It's Saturday, get a friend or two and go see a movie.
NewLee40 Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 I'm in the same boat today. I'm sorry.....wish I knew how to comfort you, but I can't even figure out how to comfort myself. Just know you aren't alone.
Author samski3409 Posted October 8, 2005 Author Posted October 8, 2005 i hear you man. i have been doing really well too. I'm casual dating a girl for like a month now,it's been cool and i like her.i have plenty of great friends and hell i live in this awesome city. that's kinda what really bothers me about it though because with one call she can send me reeling. and i feel so set back by it.i can only imagine how screwed up I'd be if i actually contacted her.i just hope i don't run into her though cuz sometimes this city is smaller then we think.
jomaxfury Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Hang in there, You have come so far to let this get to you. I'm aproaching the 3 month of Nc since the break up. It f*&^#n hurts. When I see her at school and she just gives me a smile instead of saying "I am sorry for threating so badly...I love you and want to be with you for the rest of my life" but I know its not going to happen. My birthday is coming up. I hope I don't hear from her...because It will only set me back. Any advice I welcome it. Thanks
In Sync Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 today I must admit I too was thinking about the ex which got me all down and teary, I'm thinkin' it's because when the weekends rollaround that's my trigger to remind me he's not longer around for me. There's not much for me to do but ride the wave of this feeling I mean what other choice is there?
heartnsoul Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Samski....why not change your numbers? These contacts are in a sense holding you back. If you're seeing someone that you truly like, changing those numbers will allow you to give this new girl (and you for that matter) 100%. Not to sound like a complete whaco but this weather we're having doesn't help either.
Author samski3409 Posted October 8, 2005 Author Posted October 8, 2005 H&Soul,you're not any more wacko then me,cuz this weather does mess with me as well. I've thought of that,i just seems drastic.I've had the number for years and all my friends back home in Cali have it and it would be a pain i think to just change it.but then again it might just do the trick to get me Ive this last hump that i can't seem to get over.I'm going to consider it.
In Sync Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Not to sound like a complete whaco but this weather we're having doesn't help either.Not to sound like a complete whaco but this weather we're having doesn't help either. H&Soul,you're not any more wacko then me,cuz this weather does mess with me as well. Hey you two, I was about to write in my prior post/reply that the weather was effecting me as well (I'm in NYC and its fall and crappy.. rainy.. dreary) but I edited it out because I thought for sure I'd come off sounding nuts.. we are on the same page with the weather effecting us. Hmmm. we kindred spirits.
heartnsoul Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Well, you're doing great! I've read some of your threads and you've managed to not respond and that's huge! You deserve alot of credit for that! It's called the rainy day blues my man I'm having'em too. I don't know what options you have with your phone lines but privacy manager allows you to block certain numbers....that might be an option too. If all else fails and you don't want to suffer a set back by hearing her voice...e mail her and nicely ask that she stop trying to contact you.
heartnsoul Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 lol In Sync ... we're probably all neighbors and don't even know it kidding I'm in CT
Author samski3409 Posted October 8, 2005 Author Posted October 8, 2005 Hey you two, I was about to write in my prior post/reply that the weather was effecting me as well (I'm in NYC and its fall and crappy.. rainy.. dreary) but I edited it out because I thought for sure I'd come off sounding nuts.. we are on the same page with the weather effecting us. Hmmm. we kindred spirits. That is funny!!! that's what kinda suck about the weather too.cuz this was one of those days when we would be hanging out in my apartment and listening to records...ahh those are nice memories!!
Clevelandfan Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Yeah,..I'm having a tough day too,..you guys aren't alone. Except my girl was an obvious golddigger and I started believing her "fairytale" romantic LIE. Saturdays are just hard on breakups also. Hang in there, we are not alone in our pain.
kscholze Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Samski - You are the sh*t!! To not respond is the hardest part for me, although she hasnt tried in about 2 weeks. You did the right thing man. You are experiencing some bad feelings now, but take pride in not giving her the chance to f*ck with ur head again. I have a feeling I will run into mine tonight at a wedding. BTW weather is great here. but I am stuck in the office
Author samski3409 Posted October 8, 2005 Author Posted October 8, 2005 kscholze,what's up man ?!?! yeah,you know my story and today is just one of those days. that's gonna be tough if you see her tonight.what are you gonna do if she tries to talk to you? man i wouldn't know how to handle a situation like that.
kscholze Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 whats going on? Yeah man sucks those days still find a way to surface after you think you are all good. Funny thing is a lilfelong friend of mine will probobly ask her to go with him. He did this before at a wedding I was at, but she ended up going with me. I am in a good place right now. met a sweet girl I have been seeing, had a great job interview this week, and going to chicago monday for a follow up interview. I have a feeling she is in the same negative rut she always is. I will say good to see you and have fun with my friends. I am ready for it, but Im sure I will get some ill feelings
georgiagirl76 Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Hang in there all of you. I am proud of you for making it as far as you have. You all are an inspiration. I just posted about having a sad day as well. I don't really have much to add except that the weather thing I totally undertand. I am a sensory person- smells, times of year, songs etc make me nastalgic. I was in Barnes and Noble the other night getting some coffee with a friend and just looking at the menu with the fall flavors and seeing the halloween stuff and the days getting shorter made me somewhat melancholy. I am sure it is normal. Anyway, I haven't gotten as far as you but I know I will. Hang in there all of you.
Drivetildriven Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 I saw my exGF at a festival last weekend, first time I've seen her in months. We were all drunk and she ran over to talk to me. I listened for a minute then I said "well, that's great, good to see you again, have a good one" and I walked away. It felt good to blow her off. At the end of the night we bumped into each other again. She was hand in hand with some Back Street lookin pretty boy. Then she started making out with him right in front of me. I said is your boyfriend, she said no, "I just met him." What a whore. I'm pretty depressed today too, and its pissing me off. I think seeing that and this recent bout of cold weather has a lot to do with it.
sanne Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 the only reason she made out with that dude is because you blew her off like that. she was clearly trying to make you jealous. it's ok man, this girl sounds very immature and not worth your time at all.
Drivetildriven Posted October 8, 2005 Posted October 8, 2005 Thanks sanne, she is very immature. Whenever she sees one of my friends she feels the need to tell them how incredibly happy she is and how she's got sooo many friends now. It's like she's answering a question no one asked and is laying it on pretty think, like she's on the offensive or something. She's 24 going on 19 and loving every whored second of the single life. I'm gonna go for a long run. Exercise is the best antidepressant.
In Sync Posted October 9, 2005 Posted October 9, 2005 the weather in nyc sucks and so I thought going to the gym would take my mind off him but as the day progress my mind is wrecking havoc on me. I'm having obssessive thoughts that he's probably hooked up with someone else having a grand time and I'm feeling lonely as hell. And when you walk in the streets in NY, everyone seems to be hooked up with someone. So here I am besides myself with tears streaming dowm my face. Lucky for me it was a dowpour. WHY CAN'T I GET OVER THIS? This week I felt on top of the world and now I feel like I did a 180.
NewLee40 Posted October 9, 2005 Posted October 9, 2005 My emotions have been all over the place as well. One minute, I'm feeling strong and like I'm going to be ok, the next I'm crying and wondering how I'm going to make it through the next five minutes - much less the rest of my life. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and perhaps the rough days will come fewer and further between. One can hope.
In Sync Posted October 9, 2005 Posted October 9, 2005 It's so ironic that the only people who are empathetic and understand what I am going through come through to me by my computer screen and a zillion miles away. You guys/gals at LS are always there and that's a source a comfort for me. I'd be a complete mess if I hadn't this turn to now. I keep putting one foot in front of the other but I keep stumbling down. And sometimes its hard to keep getting up.
Author samski3409 Posted October 10, 2005 Author Posted October 10, 2005 I have a feeling I will run into mine tonight at a wedding. So Kscholze,what happened? did you see her?
kscholze Posted October 12, 2005 Posted October 12, 2005 It wasnt to bad, she did the same old ****. Calling me baby, looking at me like she wants do hook up, toching me everytime she walked by, rubbing her breasts against me. Then we got in a huge fight. She called me a prick cause I told her not to so that **** anymore (mixed signals). I told her never to contact me again. she changed her tune when I told her I took a job in Chicago yesterday. (I live in st. louis, MO)
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