oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 Like guys always think I'm a whore. Or prostitute when I'm just trying to look my best. But I kind of wonder is that just because I'm mixed race. The men I've done anything with were more feminine or my level of masculinity. The guy that took my V actually was like a lot like me but more prissy. Like I always wondered did he ever wear make up. Not a negative thing I thought he'd look nice with it. Anyway men generally see me as a lesser woman. I always wonder is my lack of natural feminine essence or is it just my race? Like many of the times I notice that some guys treat me like I'm a lesser female. So like things like this I never have celebrated valentine's day. I feel like though I kind of am more accomplished than the last 25 valentine's days because this is my first valentine's day I'm not a virgin. But what I had to do to get that was basically pay this guy to keep coming granted the first time was the only time he popped my cherry and that was basically all he did. And he was basically a bum. Before that I basically had to beg this guy to take me on a date and make out with. It's always been that way. Where guys see me as some last resort. Yet people will say I should have a lot of guys after me. I get hit on every day but not the guys I am at all physically attracted to. I feel like my lovelife is always hell. Maybe though at least now I'm a normal human being. Before I felt so disgusted with myself. With my virginity with virginity with everything when I was 24 and younger I hadn't even been kissed. And back then the depression was so drastically heavily. And nowadays it's like pressureless now. I lost my v at 26. So I have done everything but barely. I still feel like guys never want me I'm tired of begging as hard as I can. But people say a woman never should have to beg. But I shouldn't be stuck a V. But when I don't I get none at all. No one chases me besides men I never will want. It's frustrating. It's so angering when people assume I've had a lot of sex or that it's easy for me. When I've had to try so hard. When in the face of being called a man or being told that they want me to be their black slave I'm still trying to beg to get something out of it. Because being starved so long outweighed everything. I started to think of if someone broke in and raped me I would thank them. Because no one else would. The last month I was a virgin last thanksgiving until christmas I was going nuts. Like I worked with old men and I was like if they asked me for sex in the slightest I would. Just an inkling. I had crazy thoughts that whole month. Like just totally had been run down and tired of it. And well I rid myself of it as my christmas gift. But I had to pay the guy. I had to put up with all his mental imbalances etc... Anyhow I feel like in reality no guy will actually want to keep me around. I thought if I got money would a man want me then? Love me then? A part of me wants that at some point. But it's so hard to get in a guy's bed let alone start a relationship with and then be long term and actually find a guy that actually has the capacity to actually feel that way about me. Most men will go after women that don't even like men that much let alone them. Most men will blow air up a woman's ass to get her in bed but not me. It's take it or leave it. Most men will spend on a date on a woman take her out anywhere but nope not me. I feel like no matter what I do I'm always at the bottom of the barrel. If I'm nice I'm a dirty whore no one wants and if I am standoffish I'm invisible. I kind of feel like it's ok to be alone I never saw my mom with anyone so I mean I know single life I don't know what relationships are anyhow. But I still wonder what's she got that I don't sometimes. Why do I have to work so hard just to get laid three times? Why do I have to beg so hard to get a guy to take me to the movies? Not even dinner just movies. Why am I so unwanted? Why am I untouchable yet guys pretend I'm not at the same time?
d0nnivain Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 The begging is probably unattractive & without realizing it because you have been willing to beg in the past you are most likely giving off some kind of desperate vibe. The solution is to work on your own self esteem. When you love yourself it's easier to find a partner who is worthy of you not one you just settle for out of fear that non one else wants you. 4
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 1 minute ago, d0nnivain said: The begging is probably unattractive & without realizing it because you have been willing to beg in the past you are most likely giving off some kind of desperate vibe. The solution is to work on your own self esteem. When you love yourself it's easier to find a partner who is worthy of you not one you just settle for out of fear that non one else wants you. DO I have a good self esteem I really never know? I think I do. I mean I get a lot of negative people and I kind of stay teflon. Always have in most avenues. Like that's why the first guy I didn't get with because he kept attacking me. Calling me a guy asking if I was born female saying when I gave him compliments said he was beautiful he just would avoid saying the same about me. I would always try to seem down to earth and make him feel good about himself. WHen he called me a guy he tried to gaslight me saying he thought I was confident and shouldn't I be comfortable with myself. Then the day before I was going to hook up with him I sent him a photo and he wouldn't even compliment me. It was like just forget it. And I never said a word to him. In fact he insulted me saying I looked healthy and mature. It was my self esteem that just made me say forget it he clearly doesn't want this to happen even though he kept texting me for sex calling me while I was at work. But he did not find me attractive it was icky and plus I wasn't that attracted to him he let his beard grow too much and he was short and when I tried to sit in his lap I crushed him I'm 5'1" and 110 lbs to 120 lbs he was only 125 lbs sometimes I wondered if he was even a cisman or transgender. So because of how he acted I gave up on him.
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 4 minutes ago, enigma32 said: If you feel so unwanted, imagine how all those guys feel that hit on you and you would prefer to beg some uninterested guy to take you to the movies. they usually have someone that person just doesn't look like me.
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 5 minutes ago, enigma32 said: If you feel so unwanted, imagine how all those guys feel that hit on you and you would prefer to beg some uninterested guy to take you to the movies. and I can't make myself attracted to people I'm not attracted to 2
basil67 Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 (edited) 18 minutes ago, oppositeage26 said: I get hit on every day but not the guys I am at all physically attracted to. If this is true, then the rest of your post about men never wanting you is simply false. Perhaps too much dramatics repels the guys you like? Edited February 13, 2020 by basil67 3 1
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 Just now, basil67 said: If this is true, then the rest of your post about men never wanting you is simply false. All the drama about men never wanting you is patently untrue. ok so it's not true when I walk around there's some pimp wanting to sell me on the corner. There's some guy selling drugs wanting to do a one night stand. Some crackhead that I am not attracted to and on top of it can't understand his language interested. I can't help who I'm attracted to. The guys from a different part of town like me. But the other lower class guys I can't get much out of them. Higher class they always think I'm fake when I am online dating. Irl they think just because I'm a pretty girl in a bad neighbor I must be a prostitute. I can't win
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 Just now, enigma32 said: And those guys you are literally begging in hopes of getting their attention, they also cannot make themselves attracted to people they are not attracted to. So you should understand this situation perfectly. the second guy? I think he was attracted to me but in a really sick way.... Like he was the one who wanted a black slave.... So yeah... He'd have long tirades of all the s*** he wanted to do to me. Anyhow the first guy yea I learned not to push myself too much. After that and if I saw any sign of a guy attacking my physical well I didn't talk to them. I stopped having blonde hair on my profile it seemed to cut down those comments.
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 Just now, enigma32 said: Sounds like the guys you are attracted to are sick individuals. Maybe ask yourself why that is. first guy idk was he sick or just mean and social awkward. I feel the latter. The second was insane at the end he was talking about how bad he wants to die blah blah blah blah and how I had to give him money and when he hooked up he had a lot of cuts on him. He talked about his drug use in the beginning how he was abused in every way possible as a kid and how he's mentally cracked and struggled with homelessness. So I knew he was crazy I just was 26 and had never had sex. So for me I knew it wouldn't last but I just had needs. I had very strong sexual attraction to him he actually modeled at one point he was the very attractive kind but I knew emotionally it wouldn't work and I ended up having to call the police on him because he was going into detail on how badly he needed to kill himself. So yeah that was terrible. I generally don't really go for crazy men I go for any man I'm attracted to that seems ok but in that case I had never had sex and was 26 so anything would have been ok I mean I was at work thinking I could have sex with old fat men I worked with and I didn't like them at all.
basil67 Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 (edited) 17 minutes ago, oppositeage26 said: ok so it's not true when I walk around there's some pimp wanting to sell me on the corner. There's some guy selling drugs wanting to do a one night stand. Some crackhead that I am not attracted to and on top of it can't understand his language interested. I can't help who I'm attracted to. The guys from a different part of town like me. But the other lower class guys I can't get much out of them. Higher class they always think I'm fake when I am online dating. Irl they think just because I'm a pretty girl in a bad neighbor I must be a prostitute. I can't win They think you're a prostitute because of how you present. No woman - no matter what her race - will be mistaken for a prostitute if she doesn't dress like one. Let's face it, the clothes of a working girl are her uniform. People look at how she presents and know what she does for a living. No different to any other uniform. Add running with the dregs of society to your behaviour....of course they think you're a prostitute. If you don't want to be mistaken for a prostitute, don't dress like one and don't run with the guys who are involved in the seedy part of life. How do you know that the higher class guys think you're fake? Edited February 13, 2020 by basil67 3
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 19 minutes ago, basil67 said: If this is true, then the rest of your post about men never wanting you is simply false. Perhaps too much dramatics repels the guys you like? I'm not very dramatic. I'm very shy in person online I am very friendly but when they met me I am very super reserved and shy VERY VERY shy. I always am around good looking men
basil67 Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 Just now, oppositeage26 said: I'm not very dramatic. I'm very shy in person online I am very friendly but when they met me I am very super reserved and shy VERY VERY shy. I always am around good looking men Well, your whole first post was a heap of drama and contradictions. If you were very very shy, you wouldn't be paying men for sex. Nor would you be mistaken for a prostitute. What does hanging with good looking men have to do with any of this? 3
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 2 minutes ago, basil67 said: They think you're a prostitute because of how you present. No woman - no matter what her race - will be mistaken for a prostitute if she doesn't dress like one. Let's face it, the clothes of a working girl are her uniform. People look at how she presents and know what she does for a living. No different to any other uniform. Add running with the dregs of society to your behaviour....of course they think you're a prostitute. If you don't want to be mistaken for a prostitute, don't dress like one. How do you know that the higher class guys think you're fake? I'm always accused of being fake online. Which is weird. I don't dress like a prostitute I wear pants like jeans never shorts dresses or skirts. Or leggings. ANd I have a small butt so that's not it at all. I wear regular t-shirts I'm a tomboy I'm not dressing overly feminine I'm more masculine than some guys I'm interested in personality at times. But I do wear make up and do my hair. Like I said it's more a pretty thing in a very terrible neighborhood than anything. People usually think I'm small everywhere so I don't have that attention. Just that when I'm in a bad area I get treated like a prostitute purely on that. I've had black guys think I was a whore making money out in the streets. And I'd look at them like what? Just got from work a call center. What are you talking about?
stillafool Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 28 minutes ago, oppositeage26 said: The guys from a different part of town like me. But the other lower class guys I can't get much out of them. So is it the lower class guys you want that don't want you? The guys from your neighborhood?
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 5 minutes ago, basil67 said: Well, your whole first post was a heap of drama and contradictions. If you were very very shy, you wouldn't be paying men for sex. Nor would you be mistaken for a prostitute. What does hanging with good looking men have to do with any of this? uh yeah I met both the guys I met in person online at first. I've never gone with a guy irl. I am quiet to everyone they leave me alone mostly besides the undesirable men bother me all day. I was explaining how I am to men in regular life. I am overly friendly online. But that's compensating for when irl. I'm so shy and quiet and scared because I've only experienced negativity from men's harrassment and anger towards me. So I am very shy naturally. I was just explaining I'm not asking anyone for a ride they ask me that.
basil67 Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 So why does a quiet and shy girl see in the guys who are the dregs of society?
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 (edited) 9 minutes ago, enigma32 said: In certain neighborhoods, any girl out walking around is likely to be seen as a hooker, because no girl in her right mind would be out walking around otherwise. Just how it is. Not much you can do about that other than move, if you can afford it. I'm a white guy if it matters, and I have dated black girls before. I never treated them any differently than I did white girls. well right now I've moved but it's so shut off in vegas you encounter the lower types of people easily. But before when I was on fremont it was the worst hell as far as the prostitute thing Edited February 13, 2020 by oppositeage26
stillafool Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 Why are men harassing you and angry with you? 1
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 9 minutes ago, stillafool said: So is it the lower class guys you want that don't want you? The guys from your neighborhood? the lower class usually the ones from my neighborhood do but I don't really want them plus usuallty for nothing good
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 15 minutes ago, basil67 said: So why does a quiet and shy girl see in the guys who are the dregs of society? I don't see any good I'm just trying to get whatever I can
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 9 minutes ago, stillafool said: Why are men harassing you and angry with you? well thse are usually that I'm not interested in
Miss Spider Posted February 13, 2020 Posted February 13, 2020 (edited) 2 minutes ago, oppositeage26 said: I don't see any good I'm just trying to get whatever I can Maybe that’s your problem? You don’t respect yourself enough to have standards and people can see that? They can sense the desperation Edited February 13, 2020 by Cookiesandough 1
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 Just now, Cookiesandough said: Maybe that’s your problem? You don’t respect yourself enough to have standards and people can see that? They can sense the desperation when I had standards all I had were standards though it was like girl forget you kind of thing 1
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 I had high standards from 18-23 and I got nothing at all. JUst a lot of negativity rarely an attractive guy would smile at me or acknowledge me in a normal way. But nothing else. 1
Author oppositeage26 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Posted February 13, 2020 I used to say no sex until 22 or 23 and dating then until 6 months to have sex with a successful college graduated guy who treated me like a queen lol. That sounds funny to me I gave up long time ago on being treated like a queen I'm just asking to be tolerated and I'm struggling with that. 1
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