hopeless30 Posted October 4, 2005 Posted October 4, 2005 I have an impossible choice , it is making me lose my mind and I am eaten up by guilt , sadness and deep loathing of myself. Several years ago i split up with my then girlfriend , she was pregnant with our child at the time , our relationship broke down badly and we split up although i continued to visit every day and was there for the birth of our son , i moved back in for a week afterwards but the relationship had gone and i moved out for good. We continued on , i visited every night after work and at times over the weekends and have a very amicable relationship which is good for our son who i love more than anything , but over time i have moved on and now live with someone else , i still go to see my son every other day , but it is hard juggling a relationship and my time with him I have never forgiven myself for the breakdown of our relationship then and am consumed by guilt over our son an not giving him the family life Now my ex has told me that she is going to move abroad , taking our son with her and has told me that she wants me to go too. I sit here every day thinking about it , it rips me apart to think of what i would do to my girlfriend if i left her , she would be devastated, she has no idea that i am considering leaving and i hate myself for doing that too her , but my problem is that I love my son more than life itself and i would love nothing more than to be with him every day and be a proper father to him , i couldn't bear it if i couldn't see him again , but i don't love my ex that way , whereas i do love my girlfriend very much and would be gutted if i had to give her up. So my impossible choice is leave my girlfriend who i love deeply and try to be a family for my son or stay and lose my son. It doesn't seem like a fair choice, sometimes i feel like giving up altogether
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