We've been so happy 2mos, 2 days before 1st counseling appt NOW WHAT is happening?

[jhurtinct]

My b/f and I have been back together (slowly) for 2mos now, total of 6 1/2 yrs, we are not living together right now our son is w/me, but we spend alot of time together, he spends most of his nights here with us and leaves for work in the am.(short exlaination for those who don't know the above)

 

Well we had a wonderful weekend planed (my b/f and I, mom and dad wkend)

he got us tickets to go to the NY and Boston game at Boston on Sat GREAT::

We go to leave the house (Iam a very slow mover) I'm running behind (too many coffee and cigs:)) #1) Well, he raises his voice at me for this bcuz I'm late, in frnt of our child. Spoke about it one of my biggest probs, several times. #2) I know prob ,y fault but we went to a bar after game to get something to eat, he went to school up there and he knew the place, well I get feeling bothered thinking of him being there in college and I get queit and bothered(not happy and enjoying myself) he knows me and knows whats bothering me, so he says I'm rediculous and overreacting( I never really said anything just got sad and queit).

 

Sun. after he did not stay w/me Sat night, I speak to him about I feel us drifting alot and it isn't going to happen, right? He stays over no affection I spoke to him about how I actually got very upset the night before he wasn't here w/me to laugh about a tv show, no response, he says goodnight, don't feel well, headache and tired. Goodnight to you too.!.

 

So today we meet for lunch, ok time still lacking affectionfrom first few wks, witch I loved. Well tonight I ask when he picks up his dinner can he drop something off for us, yes but I am not paying for it, I said ok I'll give you money. It did botherr me a bit because he remrked about how much $ he spent for the game and how much he's been spending on me, I don't understand the value of a dollar blah blah, again he has supported us for the last 4 yrs, I have been able to thankfully stay home with our son. But I never spend on nonsense I didn't ask for the game he took it upon himself to surprise me now he rubs it in. Anyway most of that was yelled at me over the phone while I'll held it away.

 

Why is he going back so quik to not, For lack of better term, kissing my butt and loving me with affection and attention, to now 2 days before our 1st couseling appt he i s making me so upset???? help sorry so long

[jhurtinct]

Some more things::: after he yelled at me for the atleast 3rd time this wkend, I confronted him about this, pls try and find abetter way to comunicate when your upset with me and don't do it in front of little guy.

 

He does it again tonight I said to him I've asked youalready not to do that and you don't seem to be trying if you don't want to we don't have to do this thrus. if your not serious (he wanted to go was he's decision). He says well I'll let you know and hangs up. I have not called him, What should I do??

 

I have a problem giving in, I feel like he will always use it against me or that he will know he has me.

 

I can not let him hurt me again or let myself be hurt again, I can't let anyone in my family or friends see me upset again:( I do wish he whould call but I wish he would stop yelling:( Anyone ?????

[jhurtinct]

He still has not called me since last night, I got up very upset and hurt, I think he is doing it on purpose, should I call him or just sit here and wait?

 

I feel if I call him its making it ok for him to yell at me when he feels like, but not calling him is killing me too.

[jhurtinct]

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