StayingStrong Posted October 2, 2005 Posted October 2, 2005 So i just spent three days with my "ex" and they were the best days i have ever spent with her. We hung out, we went to this bar and danced all night with each other. Some very hot dancing i might add. We even kissed. But i am dying inside again because she has left and i am forced to forget about us. We were recently roommates and we lived and kind of dated for two years on and off. I had a problem with her being a female and was not comfortable accepting that i loved her (i am a female too). That was such a problem for me that i would always push her away. I was worried about my family and friends hating me. But throughout all of this time, i loved her and she loved me. We slept in the same bed for nearly the whole time that we knew each other. I've moved about 2 hours away and now its time for us to move on, which we agreed on but i dont want to. I love her. I dont care about others peoples opinions anymore about who i should love and what is right or wrong. I missed out on an amazing person worrying about everything and everyone else. Now i realize it and its too late. She has met someone that she is not dating but i sort of talking to. That rips my heart apart. I want her back. When we are with each other it is still unbelievably comfortable. I miss her. We talked alot about this over the weekend and she is not wanting a relationship that is long distance. She does not want to long for someone and want to see them everyday and not have that option. She says that she loves me but things are different. She is a bit irritated that i am okay with things now but all this time she has been trying to get me to let all of that go and now its too late. What can i do? How can i git rid of this emptiness that will not go away? I dont want to meet anyone else. I dont want to forget about her. I dont want to move one even thought that is what i need to do. I love her. I'm just lost and confused and in tons of pain and feeling quite lonely. This sucks.
bendit Posted October 3, 2005 Posted October 3, 2005 being with her may have been fun and great but it was temporary..the real pain is the aftermath when you are left with all the feelings. nobody on LS likes to hear this but the ONLY way to move on is total and complete NO CONTACT with the ex. If you don't do this, you are simply bringing more pain to yourself. Sorry to have to be the bearer of this news but its the ONLY way. regards mike
Author StayingStrong Posted October 4, 2005 Author Posted October 4, 2005 being with her may have been fun and great but it was temporary..the real pain is the aftermath when you are left with all the feelings. nobody on LS likes to hear this but the ONLY way to move on is total and complete NO CONTACT with the ex. If you don't do this, you are simply bringing more pain to yourself. Sorry to have to be the bearer of this news but its the ONLY way. regards mike tell me about it. i am definitely going through the real pain. she was my rock for two years and the only person that i have fully trusted and the one person that i turned to whenever something was going on with me. i have been searching for something like that for years and now i have to completely let that go. i dont know how to make myself understand that that is the best thing to do.
jaye Posted October 4, 2005 Posted October 4, 2005 I dont care about others peoples opinions anymore about who i should love and what is right or wrong. Honey if you don't care then there are two things 1 - what are you doing in this post seeking people's openion when you have already made up your mind 2 - if you are talking about only your family then love is blind you know what to do, i'd say, ask her if you can move in with her. and things should go good don't give up because i freakin hurts i am going through samething the only thing i did wrong was to be honest. Love is God given gift you're lucky you had it a while i never did
Author StayingStrong Posted October 4, 2005 Author Posted October 4, 2005 Honey if you don't care then there are two things 1 - what are you doing in this post seeking people's openion when you have already made up your mind 2 - if you are talking about only your family then love is blind you know what to do, i'd say, ask her if you can move in with her. and things should go good don't give up because i freakin hurts i am going through samething the only thing i did wrong was to be honest. Love is God given gift you're lucky you had it a while i never did what i dont care about is the fact that i loved/love a female. moving in with her is not an option and she has moved on. i feel like i deserve it and i am driving myself crazy with that. I am very lucky that i had her. She still wants us to be friends but i have no idea how to do that. I feel blessed that i had/have her in my life but i am devestated because i no longer have the same kind of love that was there for me for 2 years. I screwed up.
jaye Posted October 4, 2005 Posted October 4, 2005 If You Dont Wanna Hurt Her And Yourselves Then Don't Be Friends Cus That Will Urt You And Her Too
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