legrtova Posted October 2, 2005 Posted October 2, 2005 Sorry for being ‘unregistered’, the servers have been down. I appreciate ANY honest feedback from both sides; the women who were cheated on, and the women who 'stole' husbands and broke hearts. I met him in the stage of my life when I was very happy and very single. Our eyes met and we hadn’t spent a single day without each other for the next 9 months. I fell for him hard, and he said so as well. I thought he was the most beautiful man I have ever seen. We called each other all the time and emailed at least 2 times a day. We had developed an addiction to being together. I knew he was married and told him not to contact me right at the beginning, knowing that destruction was inevitable. We kept on going out anyway. We had the happiest relationship ever imaginable by human beings, strategically forgetting his marital status. We lived a happy lie for 9 months. I was never alone on X-mas or other holiday, he was always there for me. I met his friends and he always introduced me as his g/friend. Now he is gone. He's made his choice, and as twisted as this might sound, I am glad he chose his wife and family: that tells me he does have feelings. I was crushed and felt like life ended for me. I told him not to call me. He should be focusing on patching up his unfixable marriage(his wife found our pictures, emails and love letters) He still calls me. He still says he loves me. He still says he is happy with me. He says he wants my baby. He uses that to control me. He doesn't want me to move on...maybe he DOES NOT love me. I love him and the only thing I hope for is for him to be happy...with or without me. We are still living a happy lie, dreaming of being together again... I told him to not contact me...not until he has a divorce paper in his hands. I am heart broken....I can not let go off the fantasy I was living, I cannot deal with the fact that I have hurt another woman so badly, that I have shown no respect for her and her family, and yet I cannot imagine my life without him. I realize that I do not want to be with him (that's my head), but I am longing for him constantly. I don't sleep, I don't eat, I don't laugh...you know the drill...I cannot remember my life before I met him... I am old enough to not be screwed up anymore, but I have screwed up and living with the consequences. I do not expect him to come back. I know he would cheat on me, too, and yet I still believe he was the one. I will keep my happy memories and try to move on. I don't need to hear how bad I am for doing that, I am fully aware of what I had done. I have no regrets, but I do show remorse. Like I said, I do appreciate any feedback, regardless if it's good or bad. Thanks
legrtova Posted October 5, 2005 Posted October 5, 2005 I posted this one before I was registered. It's the same post as another one I posted. Sorry. L.
heyitsmichele Posted October 5, 2005 Posted October 5, 2005 I feel for you. I am in almost the exact situation. IT sucks. Except we have a baby together ........I think this site is good therapy:)
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