hurtfromlife Posted September 29, 2005 Posted September 29, 2005 2 months ago my g/f of 2 1/2 years broke up with me. during the course of our relationship i had lied to her about doing drugs(weed) on 3 different occasions and then later on told her about it because i could not keep it inside. The breakup did not come after me telling her any of these times, it actually happened when I 'thought' things were actaully going ok. I straightened up my act, I had her as #1 in my life, I have been done doing any drugs since the last time I told her. For so long she acted like I was #1 in her life, I was her mate, she wanted to get married and always asked me about marraige. Maybe 2 weeks after we broke up she started hanging out with this other guy all the time, we had actually hung out with him before she broke up with me as friends, I had no idea he was going to be her next b/f. Anyway, for about a month they saw each other everyday just 'dating'. Just the thought crushes me, she said she didn't want to be in a relationship with anyone, yet immediatly she is dating this guy. Anyway, he is a total jerk and treats her like ****, he has actually hit her for some reason. Why she told me this I dont know, but it made me furious and there is nothing I can do about it. She said she was done with him, we hung out and had a good time over a recent weekend. But now she is hanging out with that other guy again, and telling me about how her 'eyes are so open now' when she goes out because she is looking for another boyfriend. I try to stay occupied, I play music, videogames, work, school, hang with the fam, everything I can to keep my mind off it, but I love her so much, I just can't get her out of my head. I know she still has feelings for me but I know also that she doesn't want to act on them for whatever reason. I know I should probably move on but I can't, my mind wont let me just forget and move on. I don't really know what to do, is it worth trying to get her back in my life now? Should I just close off all contact for a while and risk never talking to her again? Any thoughts on this will be greatly apprechiated.
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