wreck Posted September 27, 2005 Posted September 27, 2005 Well the no contact thing was forced upon me today, i'm sure it's a good thing but the last thing i wanted to do was to do the NC because of an argument. I wanted NC but she kept finding ways to contact me or little reasons then giving me hope then telling how she isn't in love with me anymroe but hopes that she can be again but she needs time ARGHHGHGHHGHGHG!!!!!!!! I miss her so much, moving to a new place on saturday too so leaving our home and new kittens we just bought and flatmates that have become my friends, i want her back so badly just want this feeling to end but i dont' want to hate her or her to hate me :''''''''''''''''( xxxxx
georgiagirl76 Posted September 27, 2005 Posted September 27, 2005 It is tough right now and the good news is that the first day is the worst. Just hang in there and keep yourself busy. Start a project or take up a new hobby- get out of the house and spend time with friends and family. Soon the days will fly by faster and before you know it it will be day 17 like me. Hang in there.
Author wreck Posted September 28, 2005 Author Posted September 28, 2005 God i'm definatley trying, the worst thing now is that i'm still in "Our" house and have to pack up and leave it this saturday, and the even worst thing is that i've started dreaming about her, in a loving sexual way god this is sooooooooooooooo hard i know it gets better i just want it to get better now feel like i need to just wrap myself up in something :'''( i'm trying to do all i can, meet friends, keep busy, just a constant ache in m y heart and a permenantly sick feeling in my tummy :'''( xxx
georgiagirl76 Posted September 28, 2005 Posted September 28, 2005 Wreck Happy Day 2- see you woke up today- and you will tomorrow and each day will bring something new but you will be one more day away from the initial hurt/shock. I know that you said you are involving yourself with your friends etc. I just caution you not to avoid your pain. I know this sounds odd- like it is with me how can I avoid it. I used to get anxious about the feeling of overwhelming pain and not want to cry. However, I learned that I had to allow that feeling to happen- it is part of the process. Cry, scream, do whatever you need to. Eventually those times will become few and far between. Packing is tough regardless of what the circumstances- just let yourself process it. Keep posting here and don't do anything drastic without either posting for opinions or talking to a friend- it always helps to have a buffer for your behavior when you are in an intense emotional state.
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