Sucker For Love

[jester2trife]

My girl and I of about 2 years broke up about a month ago. Im 25 and shes 20. Which makes me wonder why its so hard for me to get over it. You can tell that she is young nad needs to grow as a person. She says she needs to see other people because shes only had one other serious BF besides me, and I completely understand that. It suprisingly didnt hurt me when she said that she started seeing someone last week. She needs to see what its like not having me there in her life. She of course repeatedly said it wasnt like it was her BF, just were seeing other a couple of times. Lets face it, hes a bo and Im a man. The poor kid doesnt even know whats coming. Rebound style is going to steam roll through him. Certain things are bothering me about this whole situation. She is going through some serious sh#t with her home life. She is about to drop out of school, this is for sure. If that happens, her mother will make her pay rent, which isnt going to fly with her. One, she wont pay rent to her mother to follow rules. Secondly, she isnt the full time job type. The girl got her car taken away for not pulling her weight in school, shes doesnt have job, shes got no ambition...Why the Hell do I constantly think about her? I know her life is going downhill. But the thing that concerns me is: What happens when she hits rock bottom and has no one to turn to? Her friends arent real friends, her parents have all but given up on her, she'll realize that I am the only person who is truly there for her. That is where a dilemma will arise. Im not some safety net to catch those who cant hack it. I do home loans and make more money than most, and she knows it. Theres no way that I can just take her back if and when she decides that Im the only one who is there for her. It will be a tough situation to say the least. We fit so good, that I could definitely see myself spending forever with her. But apparently, she doesnt feel the same, I think. She just needs to see whats out there, but if she realizes that theres nothing out there that could compare to me, then what? We spoke about the fact that neither of us really think that its completely over, which sucks. I havent called her in weeks. I havent been answering her calls, but she called from a private number and I slipped up and answered it. Shes heard that I was partying hard (too hard) and seeing someone else, and she kept asking who it was. Why does she want to know? I have no idea. Its a tough situation to be in. I dont know if I miss her, or miss someone in general. I have always had a girl, always. I feel that I am co-dependant and starting last week, I am going to therapy to see if I can correct that. I want to happy on my own, so then when someone comes along, I will truly be happier than I have ever been. I still hold on to a sliver of hope that we will be happy once again, but I cant hang my hat on it. When she called the other day, she told me that her home life was miserable and shes super depressed, but we didnt discuss us. The reason she really called was to say thank you for the birthday card and flowers I sent to her without her knowledge. She sais no one else gave her anything, not even parents. That sucks man. I wish her the best, but I only wish it was me who could give it to her. Im lonely man, bottom line. And I want it to go away....

[jomaxfury]

I was going through similar drama in my past relationship that ended 7 weeks ago 2yr relationship. In fact we will have the same age as you guys in October me 25 and she 20.After the break up my exgf go kicked out of the house, by her step dad. After the break up she started to go to clubs and party alot. So she got the boot. The funny thing is that her mom didn't even say anything. She lives right next door with her best girlfriend and her family. Next to her mom unit in fact they are neighbors. I was not ready for this kind of drama. She made excuses that she didn't love me anymore, she met this girl on myspace, that she was talking a few times this past summer. She broke up with me and told me that she felt attractive to women now. Her real dad is gay, I met him and his so called "girlfreind". Her step dad and Mom fight a alot. Then one time that we were messing around I got a little rough and pushed her to floor by accident, her brother goes telling her mom that I did it intentionally. My ex was cool but, later got brainwashed that I did it intentionally. Her Stepdad and Mom who always called the cops on each other for Domestic violence, told her that they did not want to see me there in their house...Funny bcuz I was never really invited anyways. Such hypocrits. She made it seem like I was a bad guy.... I felt so horrible... becuase she was abuse as a child,after that accident everything was going great. I knew I would never harm her in anyway. I was so gentle with her and everything was going good and she told me she love me. Then out of the blue she decided to go with the girl. I would the same things for her Bday and she will tell me the same thing she told you. I gave it all in this relationship I know I was purfect, but I tried so hard.

 

"One day my ex would talk about marriage and the next day would tell me that she doen't love me anymore, them she wanted an engagement ring, and then she found a new guy, the next day she told me it was a lie, then she broke it off with me because she found a new girl. Her excuses.

She tells everyone that Iwas the bad guy. One of her friends told me she get upset that I don't talk to her or anything because I see her at school. She told her that She needs me her life right know. When I was there she didn't appreciate it, imagine as friends.

 

NC....Please... NC.