yellowgreenblue Posted September 23, 2005 Posted September 23, 2005 hi ive been suicidal for my whole life, anyway im out of highschool and have done nothing but smoke ot for 4 years , i now fear death from some kind of disease related to that, i have since quit but i have nothing, everyone else i know is graduating university this year and i havent started, i have no friends, no one i try to talk to ever listens to me, my uncle has been abusing me for years and will not stop, if he comes around and i sit down near him he abuses me, my question to you people is do i throw all of his belongings into the ocean to say a final **** you to this a**h*** or what im probably never going to see him again soon and i dont see why i shouldnt leave him with some sort of parting gift please help me i am lost as to what to do . my thinking is i should do this to send him the message of how ****ed up he is for doing that too me i no longer care about what he thinks of me he is absolutely insane everything i do he mocks, he trys to control my life, he trys to tell me what to do when hes the biggest loser ive ever known i am sick of this **** and it just makes me want to kill myself what the **** do i do
georgiagirl76 Posted September 23, 2005 Posted September 23, 2005 I am at a loss for words because if you are serious in your post I don't want to say anything that may cause you to continue with your plan. Please try to reach out to a hotline or anything that will allow you to vent and give you options. Threatening to end your life is a serious problem that only qualified experts can truly handle. I would never try to say that I have felt any of what you are feeling- even if I could relate to abuse it is never the exact same until you actually walk in someone's shoes. I am sorry people have hurt you and I am sorry that your pain is overwhelming. Try to think of it this way- I am a complete stranger and I have compassion for you. There are people in this world that will help you and care for you- you just need to call the right numbers or reach out. If you are serious please visit suicidehotlines.com on the web they have a lot of numbers and resources for you. Iwish you luck.
Outcast Posted September 23, 2005 Posted September 23, 2005 You need to call a suicide help line or an abuse line now. You don't need to live like this - there are people who will help you but you have to reach out to them. Look in your phone book for help lines or call your police department and ask for numbers of help lines.
yellowgreenblue Posted September 24, 2005 Posted September 24, 2005 i cant phone them those people make no sense it doesnt help at all , i wont do prescription drugs either that ****s stupid, nothing ever works for me
yellowgreenblue Posted September 24, 2005 Posted September 24, 2005 to outkast ive lived like this my entire life alright i dont need to but i have everytime ive tried to make myself happy by making friends or whatever ive just been crapped on hardcore by everyone always
magda Posted September 24, 2005 Posted September 24, 2005 I say, start university and tell your uncle to **** off if that is what you want to do.
Craig Posted September 24, 2005 Posted September 24, 2005 i cant phone them those people make no sense it doesnt help at all , i wont do prescription drugs either that ****s stupid, nothing ever works for meNothing ever works for you is the same (isn't it) as saying everything doesn't work for you. What have you tried?
RecordProducer Posted September 26, 2005 Posted September 26, 2005 Nobody can tell you what to do when it'snot obvious what's going on in your life and why. If you have any opportunity to start your life independently then do so. You are in your early twenties I suppose so there is no reason for you to take anyone's crap. The best way to make friends is to pursue some hobby or take some course. People with similar interests get along better. What's the problem with your education and finding a job? Don't worry about the pot and your health, but don't do it anymore.
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