Ezywayout Posted September 23, 2005 Share Posted September 23, 2005 I am starting this journal and maybe some of you may have advice from time to time. But as I broke NC, I am back to day one. Still was nice to hear her voice, I don't know why I keep the voicemail of when the last time she told me 'I Love You" after I left flowers for her. But listening to it only makes things worse. We had a good start with Easing my way out of this cold desolate hell, and back to where I can find my glory. Week1: I took my first class, it was Regulation of Business Finance. I am one step closer to my masters. I also found the strength to fight off my urges, although I broke NC. Yet, I feel compelled to not resist, this gives me relief to concentrate on my work again. I also went and saw my heart doctor, he said that it can be fixed, so better not to assume anything yet. Im also going to get my head examined, to begin the process of getting rid of my doubts. So nothing has been planned for the weekend, maybe pick up that book about "Self Matters," or go see Leejay sing and give her some encouragement. Link to post Share on other sites
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