c00lbeans Posted September 21, 2005 Posted September 21, 2005 last june i met this girl i go to photography school with on the internet. We get along really well and have soo much in commen. mid july we actualy meet in person and we have an amazing time hanging out with eachother. we Keep hanging out like best friends and 2 weeks after we met in person we are cuddling at the beach at night and she kisses me. I was more interested in another girl and didnt want to get involved with this new girl but i felt like i knew her so well in such a short amount of time. So i kissed her back and we made out for a week and i asked her out. only new her for 3 weeks and we were like best friends and then she became my girl friend. I liked her alot becuase she came after me and we had so much in commen. she broke up with me the other day a month and a week after i asked her out. She siad she didnt feel what i feel and wasnt ready for a relationship. I already sensed this becuase i always had to kiss her when we where going out. and the only time she made effort to be affectionate with me was the week before we started dating(when she was coming after me). I guess i moved to fast and was to easy and scared her away. But im so hurt. Shes so amazing i thought maybe i could marry her someday. She says im her best friend and she cares about me and it hurts her alot to break up and hurt me. She thought she was ready for a relationship and liked me alot thats why she came after me but it faded and she realized she dosnt want a relationship with anyone. I fear i will keep on hurting if i be her friend and hang out with her. I fear it will kill me not to be able to kiss and have her. I also have hope that maybe we are meant for eachother but its just not the right time. So i have to put in effort to keep her a friend. But i fear its a false hope and im just going to get myself hurt more. I love her or maybe im just infatuated with her. but this hurts so much and i dont kno what to do. Try and be her friend and see if i can get over it. or just cut her from my life and forget her. Right now, i want to be with her soo much. she is my best friend and i would rather hang out with her then anybody else. BUt it sucks that she dosnt feel love back. I cant even see beauty in other girls becuase all my feelings are for her. so unless i can get rid of thos feelings i cant even start looking for a new girl or even hook up with some girls. uggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
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